The film «The Matrix Reloaded» by technology of the asuras

I went back to the video «The influence of food. Matrix 2» («Влияние пищи. Матрица 2») from the film «The Matrix Reloaded» and watched it again. In it, Neo came to a man known as The Frenchman (Merovingian), who was one of the oldest programs of the Matrix and had the appearance of an elegant and refined aesthete loving the French language. The Merovingian (called The Frenchman) is an old, powerful program that resides within the Matrix. He is a «trafficker of information», a leader of a powerfully organized crime syndicate. At the «Le Vrai» restaurant, the Merovingian met with Neo, Trinity, & Morpheus to discuss the situation of the Keymaker. And here they sit in the restaurant, The Frenchman (Merovingian) came with his wife Persephone, and The Frenchman decided to show Neo his power.

Prior to their conversation, The Frenchman (Merovingian) secretly ordered a cake to be delivered to a woman sitting across from their table. He explains that every cause has an effect and every effect has a cause. After one small bite, the codes within the cake caused the female patron to have an orgasm and she excused and left the table.

He sent a gift to a woman sitting with two men at the next table. The Frenchman says, «Look at this woman. My God, you just look at her... She's so obvious, so bourgeois, so boring, but she's trying to get the world to be just like she wants it to be. I sent her something for dessert». And then the waiter brings the woman a plate of cake. The Frenchman says: «This is an unusual dessert. I created this program. It begins very simply». And there is shown, that this woman bites off the first a piece of this cake. «...Each line of the program creating a new effect. Like poetry... — says The Frenchman. — First she blushes. She's getting hot. Heart beats faster. You see this, don't you? She has no idea what's happening to her».

Then Persephone, the wife of The Frenchman (Merovingian), intervened in his monologue: «Maybe it's because of the wine?» But The Frenchman ignores her question, «What is it? What is the reason?» And that woman, who was eating that cake, began to immerse into her sensations. She began feel a rush of blood to the female organs, and as if out of nowhere sexually excitement appeared and began to increase. She can't stop this. She sits in the restaurant, in front of everyone and feels an unbearable thirst to satisfy this inexplicable sexual desire. This happened simple at the level of the physical body, on the level of animal instincts. They lower her to the level a female animal during the period of fertilization.

With increasing of manifestations of external signs of sexual arousal in appearance of this woman, The Frenchman (Merovingian) continues his narrative: «But soon this loses its meaning. And soon, she forgets that there was some reason. She is excited by sensations... Consequences... Such is the nature of the Universe. We denies it, tries to fight, but all this is just a pretense and a lie. Behind our complacency lies the truth. We have absolutely no control over our lives. We have not yet learned to control our lives». And that woman can no longer tolerate a sudden sexual excitement. At her starts the sudden rush of blood to genitals, begins pulsation of the uterus, after which there is as if an explosion in her female organs, and she gets up and under the specious excuse goes into the toilet stall to masturbate. After that, The Frenchman (Merovingian) found an excuse to step out and joined her, and when he came back, his wife told him that he's got lipstick smudges on trousers.

In fact, it is shown that some genius of the virtual world, of the Matrix, composed some program that has its external manifestation in the form of this cake. And when a woman eats this cake, this program activates in her and pulls her to the lowest level, to level of primitive animal instincts, and in her women's centers begins this boiling, heightening of the sex drive: the unquenchable thirst for sexually satisfying that she can not tolerate it. And she goes to some secluded place to give herself sexually pleasure. The Frenchman (Merovingian) goes over there, and she does what he wants. Most likely, she gives him a blowjob, and then he fucks her as he wants and as much as he wants. This is how his desire is realized.

Watching this piece from the movie «The Matrix Reloaded», I thought that those who wrote a script did not know about the asuras. Because the asuras would make it everything in a more subtle way, by improved method. For an asur, to turn this chick on, not even necessary to spend money on this cake. Not even necessary to go to a restaurant. Not even necessary in any way to touch this chick: what if she's contagious? Because this woman can sit at her home. And not even necessary to send her some cake.

This asur can sit like an ordinary looking man at his home, or can walk somewhere, or even can sit in a cafe, in a restaurant with a completely different woman, nice to talk to her. But at the same time, at some mental, energetic level, he just presses on energy female centers of this chick, whom he wants to warm up. At a distance, being in a completely different place, not seeing her with the usual eyes of the physical body, without cakes, without costs. As the pickup says, why spend money on a female? With asuric technology, everything happens on the same principle: why spend money on a female? Why spend money on this cake when it is enough to just press at her women's centers and to activate in her the low-lying nature, primitive animal instincts. And at her the sex drive turns on: the craving for sexual gratification, an insurmountable orgasmic rush of lust. In fact, it is sexual violence against a woman. Although no one physically rapes and beats this woman and although she does everything herself, but in fact this woman was broken. She was forced to do it as the result of invisible influence on her through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level. And the asur, who plugged onto this woman and forced her to do it, is a sexual abuser and must be punished according to laws of the Universe for this. But when you consider that during this immense pleasure hers pious merits come out from her and he actually robs her stock of piety, he is not only a sex offender but also a robber.

The Frenchman (Merovingian) who created this program sent that woman this cake. But with asuric technology, there is no need to send someone a cake. With asuric technology, it is enough to throw obscene pictures into the mind of this lady, or, conversely, something about love that soften this chick up, excites her sexual interest, sexual desire. It is enough to pull out of her subconscious, of her memory, of her own life, of her desires something that fuels this desire, and just press to her women's centers and to the button, which is responsible for sexual desire. It is enough just hold this button in her women's centers without releasing, and all. Being geographically far away from her, in a comfortable environment. At asuras it is much easier. With asuric technology, no cakes are needed. Though The Frenchman (Merovingian) is a genius of the virtual world, but he is some dim-witted fool. Why spend money on this cake? This lady will buy a cake for herself, with her own money.

And if such a lady was actually sitting in a restaurant in the company of those two men, as in the film «The Matrix Reloaded», then the asuras would have made a tricky maneuver. They would, of course, plug onto this woman. She's sitting there eating a cake. Suddenly asur plugged onto her, installed the energical connectivity. She takes this cake, a spoon, just eats a cake, and suddenly she begins to feel as if through this cake and even through this spoon such sweetness spreading that it’s impossible to stop to her. And she wants to savor this cake bits and pieces, drop by drop, not swallowing it and not even chewing, and enjoying of the feeling of this crumb of cake in her mouth.

She takes the piece of cake into her mouth, holding in the mouth and not swallowing, and even not chewing. She is sucking it slowly like a lollipop, prolonging the moment and extending pleasure. Because the asur had plugged onto this cake, and onto this spoon, and during such energy connection is so it happens that she seems to be eating a cake, but in fact she gives him a blowjob. And in this cake, which she has in her mouth and which she does not swallow, but which she rolls in her mouth and relishes with incredible immersion in the hitherto unknown extraordinary bliss, sucking every crumb of this cake, at the energy level there is the penis of this asur. And she gives him a blowjob. Although this asur sits somewhere far from her, at home or somewhere in a cafe or engaged in some business and she does not know him and may not be aware of what he is doing now, but she is not able to break away from that bliss.

This asur somehow at energetical level went into this cake and into her spoon, which she also can't let get out of her mouth. And he didn't spend a dime on her, didn't even send her a cake. This woman at that time can sit with different other men, and she's right in front of them doing it, and they even have no clue about it. No one ever knows about it. And she herself can not guess, although she will guess necessarily, because when she puts this piece of cake in her mouth, she immediately has a very unusual sensation. She immediately realizes that she does eat not just a cake, because she does eat this cake not like a cake, and she does not eat this cake at all. When the asuras is plugging onto woman, everything happens in a similar way.

There may be a lot of people around her, and she does it right in front of them, right in front of the people she's sitting at the table with. They look at her, and she with them eating this dessert that they bought to her. And in front of everyone, she gives blowjob to some asur who just plugged onto her at the distance. She sits, savors this dessert, licks spoon, and rolls a piece of cake in her mouth back and forth, as if she really is the goddess of blowjob. She understands that it is not a cake and it is not a spoon.

She understands that something unusual is happening here. She doesn't know how it can happen, but she feels it. Because if it was just a cake, she'd be enjoying that cake, too, but the taste would be different. The taste would then be like only response of taste buds, as from food. But when a connection of the asur to her cake and her spoon is established she has a completely different feeling. There is no taste bud reaction; there is no food at all. There's some extraordinary sweetness, and you realize that there is no cake here. Yes, of course, she eats cake, but, sorry, she performs a completely different action. She feels in this cake and in this spoon a man, his penis, and she cannot tear herself away from this penis and voluptuously relishes it in her mouth. She feels in her mouth not a spoon or a cake, but someone`s dick, although in reality she just sits and eats an ordinary cake and just holds a spoon with a piece of this cake in her mouth. All around see that she just eats delicious food. But she feels someone's cock in her mouth, and this cock is so sweet, like nothing in her life. With whom she does it, she does not care, because there such sweetness is pouring that it is impossible to stop. And she doing this all for enjoyment of a man who is an asur, who is sitting somewhere and to whom she gives this blowjob, although she not knowing how this is even possible, but she is feeling that it means something. She does this until this asur gets an orgasm.

Then she snapped out of it. Again, everything became as usual. And again can eat this cake, as if it is a cake, enjoying the taste of food. She immediately understands: «Aha, and now this is again cake». There is nothing like this in this cake at all, it's all over. And she feels such a grandiose relaxing, as if she had just had super cool sex with a super powerful orgasm, although nothing like that in real life was not at all. Her body's gone all limp, and she sits in a prostration and finally be coming around, to an ordinary environment, where she sits among ordinary people who looked at her, but did not even guess what was really happening to her. And she herself could not have guessed that some asur just fucked her in sex at a distance, got an orgasm and pulled out a lot of her pious merits, emptying her reserve of pious merits. She was simply used and robbed, depriving her of the opportunities, the good luck, the success and good living conditions that could be her, provided that her reserve of pious merits is preserved. But alas, her reserve of piety as a result of this brazen, presumptuous intrusion into scope of her vital interests to some share has been devastated and her opportunities flowed into the hands of the asur, into the hands of man, who not only robbed her thus, but even got the orgasm. And she does not even know who it is and to whom she gave her luck in exchange for this incredible adventure in the sucking on a spoon or a piece of cake with incredible pleasure.

She right in front of them had been fucked by some asur, who somewhere in physical reality reached orgasm, and as a result of this the waves of bliss surged to her. And she right in front of everyone is dissolving in the bliss and gradually is coming around, looking around and embarrassing, thinking, what if someone guessed why she was eating this cake so slowly, leisurely and stretching the pleasure, why she was keeping this spoon in her mouth and did not let go. Actually it's not she wasn't letting go of that spoon. Actually that spoon wasn't letting go of her, because the asur, who was geographically far from this woman, but was plugged onto her and through this spoon and this cake interacted with her, wanted to get pleasure and reach orgasm.

And she is sitting, cautiously looking over her shoulder, scanning the people around her to ascertain if anybody had noticed her condition during this action. Of course, she tried not to attract anyone's attention during sucking on the spoon and this cake in mouth, but then she really just wasn't up to it. There pleasure, sweetness, pouring out ostensibly of nowhere, exceeded and blocked her caution and prudence. And now, feeling that it was all over, somewhere far away from her, and coming out of this torpor which dragged her into the depths of immense bliss and relaxed entirely her, she pretends and tries to look just like everyone else.

The Frenchman (Merovingian) in the film «The Matrix Reloaded» had to go into some secluded place, to this lady did all this to him. But asur doesn't have to go anywhere to madam, neither into a toilet nor into some secluded place. To get lipstick marks on trousers?! In order to his wife expressed her dissatisfaction with him?! No, that's unreasonable!

The wife of this asur can sit next to him, next to this asur, and she will not even realize that someone by just licking the spoon, geographically being far away from them, now, right in front of her give the blowjob to this asur. Because no one else is around. There's no one who can give him this blowjob. This asur sits next to his wife. And wife doesn't realize that energetically he at that moment is plugged onto other woman who is no one for him, who is unfamiliar to him, who is far away from here. And that other woman right now, at this very time, when this asur is sitting next to his wife, is giving him the blowjob, at the energical connectivity, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level. His wife would never think of that. No one can guess about it, because all this happens at the energical connectivity, when this other woman somewhere is eating some kind of cake or something, anything.

And there's no risk of getting infections from that chick, and there's no risk of getting her knocked up, there's no risk of her impregnating. And his wife won't ask him why lipstick is on his trousers. Because lipstick will not on his trousers, because everything will happen when this woman will somewhere out there, far from this man, even among other people, and no one will guess that she is giving him a blowjob, because outwardly she just eats this cake. With asuric technology, everything is so simple! Why go to all this trouble anyway?! Why go to all these accusations, why does he have lipstick on his trousers? Why her go to the bathroom or some quiet spot to give him the blowjob or high-grade sexual intercourse? With asuric technology there’s no flaws, nothing needs to do! Because the asuras do not do anything like that. They have their own technology.

This chick will go to somewhere in a secluded place and she will give him this blowjob at the distance. Or she will insert something into her twat, for example, finger, and asur will have received full satisfaction, as at normal sex. Or she will go with one of men, with whom she came there, to have sex with him and asur will plug onto them and through the body of that male will fuck her. And the wife of this asur (who was plugged onto them) will never have guessed, because he can be with his wife at that time. And why send that chick a cake, spend money on that cake? She'll buy that cake herself, the one she likes. Asur simply will plug onto woman, and all, this process will activate at her and she will start to satisfy him sexually, without even knowing about his existence and that such sexual interaction through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level is generally possible.

I watched this video from «The Matrix Reloaded» and thought: how well this technology is perfected by the asuras. This technology is very sophisticated, well fittest, without risk and without any accusations, because no one sees anything. And no need to spend money. No need to touch that chick. No need to go anywhere. The Frenchman (Merovingian) was to have to tell his wife he had to go out. But in the case of asuric technology, there is no need to go anywhere! Don't even have to get up from your seat. You can sit where you sit. The asur just needs to make an energetic connection to the woman, to plug onto her, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level, and this woman will do everything herself, being far from this asur and not even suspecting that some man far from her has somehow entered into sexual contact with her and that such a phenomenon is possible, that he plugged onto her. This woman would never guess about it, because there is no one next to her and she just eats cake or ice cream or masturbates. This asur doesn't need to do anything, he just needs to plug onto this woman. As the Frenchman said, «Such is the nature of the Universe. We deny it, we try to fight it, but it's all just a sham and a lie. Behind our calmness lies the truth. We have absolutely no control over our lives. We didn’t learn to control our lives».

Srila Prabhupada is right, I thought. He said, «What are we going to do? — Nothing!» At the dawn of my Krishna consciousness I was listening to a lecture. There Srila Prabhupada sat with his disciples, and they asked him what to do if you feel lust, if you have sexual desire. And during this conversation mataji went into room. Srila Prabhupada looked at her and said, «Look at her: she is a pretty mataji. What are we going to do?» The disciples began to put forward their versions, but Srila Prabhupada had said, «What are we going to do? — Nothing!»

From here a conclusion: if we suddenly had a sexual desire, what we will do? — Nothing! Srila Prabhupada says that if a strong desire comes to suck on someone's cock through our spoon or cake, then what are we going to do? Nothing! Srila Prabhupada says that if we want to satisfy ourselves sexually and we don't even know that really we are being forced to do that, what are we going to do? Nothing!

And because Srila Prabhupada said «We will not do anything», he upset asuras, he did a great job of harming asuras, did great quality damage to them. Srila Prabhupada enraged asuras, has got them on edge. The asuras are able to press on the energy centers of woman and manipulate her consciousness to make her have this rabies of the uterus, Panic Womb, this explosion in her female organs to make her like a female animal during estrus, the period of fertilization. The asuras are able to make her like a female who can't say, «What are we going to do? Nothing!», who doesn't even think what is allowed to do and what to do is prohibited.

When she eating this cake, which she bought, she suddenly begins to feel there the absolutely incredible presence. She feels there a man, his dick. And she cans no control over her feelings, and she really opened up. Something is happening to her that she couldn't deal with. She will suck on this cake to such a state that the asur, who is somewhere far away from her, will get satisfaction, ejaculation and then let her go. Then she will look at this cake or this spoon, which she was licking so voluptuously: it`s again an ordinary spoon, an ordinary cake. And she will finish eating this cake soon. And there would be nothing left of that cake, very quickly, though she had held a little piece of that cake in her mouth and hadn't swallowed it for a very long time. And she was so sorry to swallow this piece when it completely dissolved in her mouth, but, thank God, you can bite off another piece of this cake and savor it again in your mouth.

I thought Shri Ram is doing it. He plugs his asuras onto the women, through himself, so that asuras can enjoy women like this, without taking any responsibility for any of them. He through himself was plugging a lot of his asuras onto me. I thought: this material world is terrible place. We need to get out of here into the spiritual world. Material world is a horrible place where your eternal couple, your a real man, who have eternal status of your man, can become so who sells his Shakti to all in a row on the cheap, in order to more men fucked her and erased her rather. Material world is a horrible place where your eternal couple, your a real man, who have eternal status of your man, can do thus in order for his Shakti to cease to exist. He can do thus in order to have fun with other women, who're nothing to him, but with whom he is pleased to entertain, who will be so suck his dick, through the spoon or the cake, and he won't be held responsible for any of them. He won't even buy this cake; he won't spend even a penny on this cake, because that woman will buy this cake.

This material world is a terrible place. Mataji will come to the Sunday program of Hare Krishna, take delicious burfi offered to Krishna, and suddenly some of vile asuras to plug onto her, onto this burfi, and this mataji will savor this burfi and ineffable bliss will issue from this burfi when she simply will keep burfi in her mouth and will not want to swallow and even chew it. Because at the sexual interaction with the asuras there is such an inexplicable bliss. But in fact, it some asur will blatantly use her sexually because he likes when women give him a blowjob. How disgusting it is. As the Merovingian (The Frenchman) said, «That is the nature of the Universe. Behind our calmness lies the truth. We have absolutely no control over our lives. We didn’t learn to control our lives». And it is very profitable for someone that we do not control our life and do not even learn this.

Big discount, that is, a big withdrawal of the pious merits from woman`s piety account

When it was brought to my consciousness that I has to sacrifice a pumpkin, that is, to destroy some big asur or a whole their group, and I began to meditate, what kind of pumpkin it would be, new layers of my interaction with Shri Ram began to open to my awareness. The first insight on the discovery of new layers was my awareness of the new meaning of the phrase «You are a big person with a capital letter. Come next time, take a carrot, tell to give you all-all-all, and with a big discount». These words Shri Ram told me through the owner of the vegetable stall, when I rescued Shri Ram from life collapse.

I realized that Shri Ram in words that I am a big person with a capital letter said that I should go away from his capital letter that sticks out between his legs, to all the other big letters that stick out between the legs of other males. In Russian, the preposition «с» («with») in the phrase «с большой буквы» («with a capital letter») can have the meaning «с», «из», «вон», «уход откуда-то» («from», «out», «go away from», «get away from somewhere»). And this time I saw the meaning of this phrase in this perspective. I had seen the meaning of the phrase «с большой буквы» («with a capital letter») as «уйти с какой-то большой буквы, с чего-то большого» («get away from some big letter, from something big»). And in this case, I had saw the association between this «big letter», that is, something big, and the penis, because men are very proud of their penis and because when the penis is staring, when dick get hard then penis is big. That is, there are particular associations between «capital letter» and «erect penis, hard cock». And the phrase «с большой буквы» («with a capital letter») in this case can be translated as «get away from my capital letter, from my erect penis, hard cock, and go to other big letters, to the erect penises, hard cockes of other men». He told me that he didn't need me anymore, that I'd kept his money, and now I have to go to the other «big letters». He said me, «Get the fuck out of here. Don't you ever fucking come in here again! Fuck off, bitch!» But when I told him that I need only him and that I will not go anywhere, he decided to put me on sale to the asuras. He decided through himself to plug other asuras onto me at the energy level, so that they fuck me through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level, and I would not know about it, because everything happens at the energical connectivity, without the presence of anyone in the physical reality. Shri Ram decided to sell me at a great discount, at very cheap prices, just to quickly pump out of me all my pious merits and quickly get rid of me.

I began to wonder when he might have sell me. I remembered that on September 3, 2016 I saved him from the life collapse that almost destroyed him. It was six months after our heavenly wedding, when I married Shri Ram at some subtle level. Nrisimhadev himself solemnized this marriage ceremony. I thought that on September 3, 2016 Shri Ram could plug onto me those who had bought sex with me through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energical connectivity, because then it was six months from the wedding and I with Shri Ram celebrated this event by having sex, which in this case looked like a ordinary masturbation. But the asuras are able to plug onto people, and in this case, even if it looks like an ordinary masturbation, in fact it is having sex, only with the presence of a partner invisibly, at the energy level, although he lives somewhere as an ordinary person. I thought that on the evening of September 3, we celebrated our heavenly wedding by such sex, and then he could plug onto me those asuras who bought me in their asuric mental catalog. After six months of our wedding, he sold me to other men for cheap.

That realization made me so sad... I thought that I saved his life. I saved his business. I saved his health. He escaped the fate of hobo, of homeless. I kept his money. I had rescued at him everything. I didn't burn his asuric abilities, though it probably would have come to that. And look how he thanked me for his saving. He began to sell me to others to make me go away from life, die.

He so rewarded me for my devotion to him during many years, many lives. I did not leave him when he was made an asur and when some powerful personalities between my lives offered to break the eternal connection with him and offered to me a new eternal couple. I didn't leave him, I turned down their offer. And what reward he gave me for my such devotion and trust of him that I didn't abandon him? Not even being with him, I fueled him by my pious merits to he was growing up. He started selling me out in order to there was nothing left of me. I was very sad.

I thought it was no wonder he treated me like that. Because I don't respect myself. I continue to be with him and I continue to protect him and give him preemptive signs, even though he has done so much bad to me. He uses my help to do asuric vile affairs, but I despite this continue to protect him. I don't respect myself at all. To me constantly at the subtle level some different good men who want to be my husband are going, they want to draw my attention to themselves, I hear it. I refuse them all the time. Some great maharishi, a great advanced bhakta, who goes to Krishna, was knocking on my door and was saying, «Why don't you even look at us, and suddenly we are much better than your Shri Ram? I'm begging you, please, pay attention to me. I go to Krishna». But I said to him, «I'm sorry, but I have Shri Ram, to whom I am faithful so many lives and whom I did not leave».

I don't respect myself at all. A normal, self-respecting woman will not stay with someone who does not respect her and who treats her so disgustingly. No wonder he was acting so disgusting to me, I thought. Because you can do this only to those who do not respect themselves. And who respects themselves, does not allow others to treat themselves badly. But I was allowing. And there is no guarantee that will not be repeated such a nasty behavior. But there's nothing I can do about it. I thought he had no right to live and be. And those like him, too.

I thought that I, as his wife, as Genie, a wish-fulfilling, as corrector of Universal scale, am fulfilling his wishes. But what wishes did he make? I was fulfilling his desires, and he was taking advantage of this. And he was making wishes that hurt me, that were to the detriment of me. He was doing everything to make me a nobody. He was doing it at my expense, with my hands. He wanted to make me a nobody, and he wanted me to do it.

He was making wishes that weren't acceptable to me, but I despite this was fulfilling these desires, and he'd say, «And this bitch will take her place of bitch». I'm sorry I came to him, I thought. Why? And I was singing to him the words of the song «Dedication to the spiritual master» of the Duo «Sankirtana-Lila»: «I am happy to meet you, but I die at parting. Saying goodbye, I remain with you, and I commit my fate into your hands». I committed my fate into his hands. I devoted my life to him. What has he done with this life? He said, «She has no right to live». That's the thanks I get! And such the reward for my faithfulness and trust in him for many lives?

I thought that he did not need the faithfulness of a woman. He wanted a faithful woman for some reason. When we started interacting on some thought level, he asked me about guarantees: what are the guarantees that I would not abandon him. He wanted a woman who would always be faithful to him. He complained me that he had, so to speak, three heart operations in this life, three pretty painful divorces. He was dumped three times.

I thought: why did he complain about it? Although he damages women. And he wanted to be happy with a woman, although he didn't respect, didn't honor women? And I'm supposed to be with someone who has no right to be happy with a woman because he doesn't respect women and damages them? And I'm supposed to turn down good men, candidates for my hand, because of him? What kind of masochism? This is completely wrong. No normal woman would agree to this.

And he wants some sex?! After all, when I thought about what he wants now, when he knows everything about us, I had Metaphorical associative card with the words «Защита и благополучие» («Protection and welfare»). The word «благополучие» («welfare») in Russian can decompose to «благо» + «получение» («the good» + «the obtainment») = «благо» + «получать» («the good» + «to receive») = «получение блага» («getting the benefit, obtaining benefits»). But how the asuras can get the benefit out women? During sex, during female orgasm. I thought: he wants sex, right? And why should he have penis, if it do these abominations? I thought the penis is not needed at all to those like him. They have no right to have the penis and to be the male.

When I had such sorrowful experiences, he had added an idea into my mind that my living with him would not allow me to relax and go away from the desire to return to Krishna into the spiritual world. Like, I will be with him and will always keep in mind these memories what he did to me, and I will always see my goal — to break out of the material world and return into the spiritual world, to Krishna, to Krishnaloka. Shri Ram gave me this idea. I thought it might be a good idea to have a constant reminder, but it's doubtful. I can remember that without being with him.

I thought I had a big tragedy. Everyone in my team of the light forces, with whom we since ancient times implemented large operations to eliminate criminals of Universal scale and of malicious creatures, before I was born in this body and approaching Shri Ram tried to dissuade me from this venture. They all told me not to go to this Shri Ram, but I said I would give him a chance. I was wrong. I should have listened to my team and not gone to this Shri Ram. Krishna said to give Shri Ram a chance; I went to him to give that chance. My team and I made a brilliant plan, I was born in this life and began to go on the points of this plan, which in this my life is unfolding and implemented.

Why I did all this, I thought. I should have let him go and let his life would go to ruin. In vain I did not leave him. Between lives I was offered to break eternal connection with him. I should have broken up, right there! I shouldn't have gone to him at all. But I came to him to give him a chance. Give what a chance? He has no right to any chance at all. I thought people like him should be squashed like nits.

He tried to persuade me to come to him. He somewhere in past lives, between lives, maybe even in this life, was saying, «Maybe I have my eternal soul mate, person I'm in an eternal committed relationship with, and maybe not. Please come to me if you exist». He was persuading me, he gave promises, oaths, said, «For you, I'd do anything, my love». I had come to him. What for? And what did I get? He became convinced that I came to him, that he has eternal soul mate, his Shakti, and then he began to take me down lower than dirt. What was he was summoning me for? What did he want when he was persuading me to come to him? No wonder he had, so to speak, three heart operations in this life. Surprisingly, that there were so few of heart operations.

I thought: I can't even curse him. I can't even wish him anything bad. I then was keeping fast of 16 Mondays of Shiva, so that Shiva to neutralize all the bad things that I wished Shri Ram. I was doing it in order to Shiva to cancel my bad wishes for Shri Ram, that Shiva removed this completely, so that it did not affect us in any way. I thought, «I can't even curse him? I can't even wish him anything bad? This is truly a depressing situation! I can't even wish him anything bad. What a pity! I am forbidden to kill him. I am forbidden wish him bad, harm him. I am forbidden to do bad things to him. All-seeing heaven, what a world is this! The world's an unjust place».

And then I thought, that I told him I wouldn't double-check the English translation of my novel when I was done. But I won't give him the satisfaction. I will double-check the English translation of my novel. I decided that I would check the English text. I had found a good site «Reverso», and when I do everything, then again slowly I will recheck everything to the English text was more or less normal, readable. Shri Ram asked me to give up this idea, he said: «Come home, eat all the pies and immediately lose weight, give up this idea to check the English text of the novel again». No, I'll do it, I'll check it anyway, because who are you at all? I thought, «I'll do it to spite you. You don`t command respect. And I'm not going to listen to your orders». I thought he had no right to do that.

And when I was thinking all this, I got another major epiphany about another meaning of those words about a big person with a capital letter, about a carrot and a big discount. In the previous insight, it came to me that «with a big discount» means that he put me up for sale with a big discount, began to sell at a bargain price, in order to more asuras were be tempted with a lucrative proposition and quickly emptied me. But this time, when I was grieving, thinking that I should not have come to Shri Ram, I got another meaning of words about the big discount. I had an epiphany suddenly, and I had a very clear realization that «at a big discount» meant that Shri Ram wanted to take my pious merits. He wanted to make big confiscation of my pious merits. Because it was said in Russian: «с большой скидкой» («with a big discount»). And in Russian, the word «скидка» («discount») comes from the verb «скинуть» («to throw off»), which has different meaning, one of which is «to throw something off someone, shake off, brush, take it away, take it off, deprive a person of his wealth». And in this case, in the words «with a big discount» I saw such a meaning that Shri Ram wanted to deprive me of my wealth, and I realized that it was about my reserve of pious merits. Shri Ram wanted to pump out all my pious merits of me. He wanted to make a big withdrawal of the pious merits from my piety account to his account.

He suffered a great collapse, he lost a lot of his assets and savings, a lot of things went away from him, but I wished him good luck, and all his Affairs began to boom up. He escaped total collapse. But he decided that it would be better if he took out all my pious merits, made a big discount, that is, a big withdrawal of the pious merits from my piety account to his piety account. He decided that it would be better if he took all my pious merits and thus radically corrected his financial situation. He thought, «I will put an end to it all. I will take all her pious merits, and my Affairs going to grow fast, and everything will be restored, everything will be even better than it was». And he decided to make this big discount off, that is, he decided to take all my pious merits, so in my bag with my jewels, in my piety account would be nothing left. This thought plunged me into despair.

I at that time needed to go buy food for our cat. I went to the pet store, and there the saleswoman watched on TV some gangster series. I don't watch that kind of TV show. But while I was standing there waiting for her to weigh the cat food, I had to listen to what was said in the show. There some good woman was captured by some scumbag and he scoffed at her, forced her to fulfill all his perverse whims and fantasies, beat her. She was doing everything to stay alive. And there was such a moment that she said to him: «I'm a human, I did everything you wanted, let me go, please», and he answered her with a sneer: «Yes, I'm happy. You did everything I wanted. Ha-ha-ha... But I want more». And she says to him, «But I'm a human», and he says to her, «What kind of a human are you? You're not human, you're meat». I watched this piece of that show and went home.

I thought: I was shown what Shri Ram wanted to do to me, what would have happened to me if Krishna had not saved me. Because Shri Ram made that big discount, as he had called it. After all, in Russian the word «скидка» («discount») from the word «скинуть» («throw off»), which also means «to throw something off someone, take something from someone». A big discount at that case is big confiscation of pious merits, a big scooping out of woman all her pious merits, a big withdrawal of the pious merits from woman`s piety account. Woman becomes completely empty, all her pious merits are taking away, and this leads to the fact that to her begins to treat not as a person, but as meat. She has some problems in life abruptly come, she loses everything — and housing, and family, and children, and health, and work, and friends, everything. And it is not known in what conditions she may be find herself, in what environment, with what people and how they will be treated to her, not to as a person, but as meat. It made me so sad.…

I thought he didn't feel sorry for me at all. Krishna had pitied me that I did not fall into this abyss. But Shri Ram did not spare me. He made a big withdrawal of the pious merits from my piety account, he emptied me out, took all my pious merits to restore his shattered financial position and even improve it. But what would become of me? I would come to a life where I was treated not as a person, but as meat. This was showed to me. I would fall to the bottom of life. I thought that's how he decided to get rid of me, give me to just anyone and devastate me. Why did he do this to me? Did I hurt him that badly that he didn't feel sorry for me at all?

I thought that he did not regret not only me. He didn't spare my children. He thought, that they still children and it's bad for them to eat too much. He decided that the conditions in which we live are too luxurious for us. He decided that the way we live now is an unaffordable luxury for us. I am alone with two children in the tiny flat, without protection and without support, without help. He thought it was too awesome for me and my kids. He thought it was too gorgeous for my kids to be with their mom, together, to live with mom. He thought they had no right to anything. Who are they? These kids are many over the place. I thought: how would we live without my pious merits, when there would be one failure? Something bad would probably happen to us. Maybe the dogs would have torn us or a brick would have fallen on head. Different situations in life happen. And this is his gratitude?

And he is such a handsome man... What an amazing man, if it was him, in the store with a card «Mine». So handsome, so interesting, such a nice man. All the asuras are so nice. People trust them on sight. And he's so pretty man, on the surface he is trustworthy, absolute respect. But he not regretted nor me, nor my children. I thought: no one spares my children. Their dad did not spare them, their relatives did not spare them, and no one spares my children. And this Shri Ram was not sorry when he activated force methods towards me, to crush me. He have not regretted us one bit. He didn't even think that I have children.

I thought: how would we live without my health, without luck, without prosperity, without normal work, normal earnings? Waving a mop for a penny would seem like a miracle, unheard of luck, if it happened. And he is such a fine-looking gentleman, such a handsome man, such an attractive, impressive man... What a mismatch between his appearance and his essence, vile and smelly essence. And I was protecting him? I was giving him benefit from observing the fast at Ekadashi? I thought, «No fucking way he will not get my pious merits! He will not receive from me a pious merits from my Ekadashi, — nothing!»

I remembered the conversation with the shop owner, Hindu, about dogs and cows. I said that they are strange, hypocrites, they are feeling sorry for dogs, but they are killing cows. I told him: «Cows give a lot of usefulness, a lot of milk, but you kill them and feed dogs with a forage made from the meat of these killed cows». I remembered this conversation and understood what it meant. Asuras are taking out of women of their pious merits, and thus killing them completely. In order to kill, do not need a knife. You just have to force a woman to somehow satisfy herself sexually, in solitude when masturbating or with some man at sex, pull out of her all pious merits, and she herself will fall to the bottom of life, she will not live. She will be without money, without opportunities, without a husband, without children, because without her pious merits she'll lose kids, the kids can't stay with her. She will be without health, without any luck, it will be a complete collapse of her life.

And that's what they do, these asuras. Because I said that they feel sorry for the dogs that are dangerous to humans and killing the milk cows. That is, they feel sorry for their asuras. They give them pious merits from women, and thus kill these women. And Shri Ram wanted to do it to me. He didn't spare my children. What a ruthless creature he is! Heartless monster. I thought that it was a pity that I was defending him, was giving him the pious merits of my observance of Ekadashi, was giving him my piety, so that he could buy himself some toys, that is, some women to play with them.

I was very wrong. What can I do to prevent my pious merits from going to him? How to turning this tap off? He enjoys those women, subordinate them at my expense. It’s possible for him due to the fact that I'm paying for this of my pocket by my pious merits. I'm completely wrong. I am guilty of this. But I don't know how to block the flow of my pious merits to him.

I thought what he had done to me might come to mind only to the enemy, but not to a friend. A friend won't throw you to the bottom of life. Such can come only to mind of the enemy, whom crush is the sweetheart and most faithful deal. I thought I wanted to kill them all. I want to kill them all, every single one of them.

Then I thought he must right the wrong that was done to me. He did not regret my children. He did not regret me. He wanted to throw us to the bottom of life. Somehow Krishna protected us. And now Shri Ram has to reimburse us for that, he has to give us everything, to me and my children. He has to make good our present and future, to give my kids everything, the prosperous secure future.

He has neglected my children, their interests and their lives many times. He wanted to deprive them of everything, wanted to deprive them of their mother, and now he must do everything to my children got a better future. I thought nobody cared about my kids. Everyone just leaves them. And so I think I need to take care of them, because no one else cares about them. So I thought this Shri Ram will come to me, no matter what. Even if I'm that mad at him. I thought he should come to me. And he has to compensate to us all the damage he's done to us.

I thought: he will come to me, necessarily. And he must do everything for me and for my children. He will give every one of my kids a big spacious posh house, a good big business, and full protection on all sides. He will take good care of them that all these benefits will be enough to them to live very well and develop well, favorably, for all their long and happy life. I thought he should organize a good personal life for all my children. Shri Ram, being an asur, is able to see people everywhere, to get into their thoughts, to see all their desires, motives. He has to find for each of my children a good couple, for their living together in love and faithfulness all their lives, and in order to there was not a single thing to cast a dark shadow on their married life. He will do everything to provide for each of my children a happy matrimonial life, and that there were no pitfalls that everything was pure, honest, that my children were, are and will be happy. Because he has to do this.

This Shri Ram will find for my son a very good wife, and for my daughter a very good husband, a successful one, a successful one, one that can make her happy, who will love her and will live with her all her life and will try to make her happy. Because Shri Ram sees the thoughts of all, and can to do this. He will give each of my children a good business, so that they do not have to worked hard somewhere in some jobs. He will do everything so that my children have, have and will have many good friends, a lot of money, well-being, he will build them better life. I thought he has to do it, so he will come to me. Otherwise he will be killed by the lightning, painfully and forever.

Shri Ram wanted me to fall into an existence where I was not treated as a human being but as meat. And he did it, he had taken all my pious merits out me. Anything could happen to me if Krishna hadn't saved me. Srila Prabhupada is right: the material world is a dangerous place. You live, dream of good, cultivate positive thinking, and make efforts to improve your life. But someone suddenly needed your pious merits, they found a way to remove pious merits from you, and made a big withdrawal of the pious merits from your piety account, a big confiscation of your pious merits, and after that you were torn by some dogs or by drunks. Some bad situation has happened. And you could not do anything, because it all happened.

I thought that it is very scary to live in the material world, I feel alone in the whole Universe. I am alone in the Universe. It is so terrible to feel oneself alone in the whole Universe, without protection and help. I thought that Shri Ram wanted to leave my son without me, and my son loves me so much. On New Year, he told me: «Mom, I was washing dishes, saving money for a gift for the New Year, I wanted to buy an expensive toy, but I want you to live longer. Please take all this money, buy yourself medications in order to you can live with us longer».

Shri Ram wanted to leave my son without his beloved mother, for whom he did not regret the money earned by him on the desired toy? This did Shri Ram? Who is he anyway? He wasn't the least bit sorry for my kids. He wanted them to be somewhere without me, without defense. And that's what he wanted when he had taken all my pious merits out me. And I was really pained by I can't do anything to him. I can not kill him, can not curse him, and can not wish anything bad to him. I might want to do something about him, but I can't because it's forbidden. What a pity! Too bad!

He tried to convince me that none of this was true. A neighbor came to me and asked who wrote the song «Blue fog is like a deception». I said I didn't know. But she was insisting, like, they are figuring out crossword puzzle, need an answer about who wrote the song «Blue fog is like a deception». I was forced to find out at Yandex. She left, and I thought it was Shri Ram trying to convince me that it was all a deception, that he was not going to make big withdrawal of the pious merits from my piety account and did not do this. But I analyzed the events of that time and saw that he was deceiving me. It means, he's still lying to me.

I had thought about woman who is our neighbor, an alcoholic. She was deprived of parental rights and taken from her five children. I thought: maybe at her like this once, in a past life was made such a big confiscation of her pious merits that she now lives in the most terrible conditions, she constantly has no money, and she does not work anywhere, a crowd of drunks constantly. Although she is a good kind woman. She was helping me with cleaning the house for a small fee. And she was very happy a small fee for her services and thanked much every time. We talked a lot with her. She is a good woman, but that's how life is. Maybe once, in a past life someone made such a big withdrawal of the pious merits from her piety account, whereby now she lives so, and therefore the guardianship took away her children, and constantly crowds of drunks from them, and constantly the police is coming to them, and they are constantly running away, hiding from the police, live in different places.

I thought maybe she was the same. Maybe once someone emptied her piety account whereby now people think «Oh, she is degraded, broken-down slut», but maybe it just she was emptied and became so? It's sadly more than probable. And Shri Ram wanted to make me such broken-down, emptied? He wanted to make me a trash? He wanted people to think about me that I was a dirty slut and that`s right that my children were taken away. He wanted low-life scum to bully me and told that I am not a man, but meat. I thought: the asuras has a well-tuned system. The technology is perfect, honed.

I thought if I could, I'd leave him, but I can't, and I have to raise the kids. And since he did it, he'll be responsible. He'll provide for me and my children, to my children very well grew and received all on maximum most good. No one pitied my children, and at least I have to pity them. If no one pitied them, I shall pity them. And so this Shri Ram will come to me and do everything for us because I want this. Yes, I was wrong that I came to him. It was necessary to endure this craving for him, like a toothache. But if I came to him and I can not tear myself away from him, I must endure it, because this will not happen again. I wrote this to myself at the very beginning of our interaction. I wrote this in a letter to a friend, but then I saw that I was talking to myself about this situation. I told myself back then that it would never happen again, so I have to endure it.

Just when I found out about the big withdrawal of the pious merits from my piety account, one last Monday of Shiva was approaching. I at that time kept the fast of 16 Mondays of Shiva, in order to my bad wishes to Shri Ram would not hurt us. And I had going to observe fast of the last Monday of Shiva, when I learned that he got all my pious merits, emptied my piety account, whereby I would fell to the bottom of life. I thought, «I will to observe this fast of Shiva`s Monday, even though I feel so horrible and don't want to do it».

I decided that I would still ask Shiva to remove all the curses, all the bad wishes that I had given Shri Ram, to remove all the bad influence on him, both and previous influence and forthcoming, so that he could live well in life, despite the fact that he had done so many abominations. He knew what happens to women when they lose all their pious merits. He saw what happens to them as a result of this, and he wanted to see me like that. I thought I didn't have to grant his wishes, he's nothing to me and I need protection. I am not immune from if someone else sometime in future lives wants to lose me all pious merits. I have to provide protection from such lovers of making this. I decided: I will definitely do it. But whom I will take to make this protection?

And I thought that those who liked to make big withdrawals of pious merits from piety account of women, did it one last time, more they will not do it, because I will make of them protection from such as they are. I'll take those who were lovers of pumping all pious merits out of women whereby she would became a nobody, a social leper, she would stay without housing, without income, without friends, without children to be treated not as a person but as meat. I'll take many lovers of pumping all pious merits out of women, and make them a shield against the likes of them. I will definitely do it. They will destroy such as they were, like this Shri Ram. They will pay for the fact that Shri Ram insulted his Shakti, taking all pious merits out her and decided to make her a nobody.

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