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The Shepherd, I do not love you





The next character appeared himself... The first mention about him was when I'm in the 72nd series commented screenshots of the 11th series of «Mahakali», about the history of Bhandasura. This is when the asuras came to Rati, to wife of Kamadeva. He was burned with fire from the third eye of Shiva. The asuras came to Rati to take his ashes and make from him an asur, the anti-Kamadeva, Bhandasura, in the presence of which cannot be any creation. There Bhandasura, looking like an ordinary person, at the same time had no physical body, and therefore it was impossible to kill him.

After in the movie «Gravity Falls» I heard about some monster who had no physical body and who commanded the minds of people. I remembered the story of Bhandasura, where he laughed at all the demigods and even over the Mahakali, that no one will be able to kill him because he has no ordinary body, and then Mahakali gave him a body consisting of physical elements, and then killed him.

Then on my table in front of me fell a king figure from a cartoon about Bremen town musicians, and this king seemed to say to me: «I love you, I love you». I remembered Alexander Pushkin's poem «Ruslan and Lyudmila»:

One, the beauty young

On the shore spun a wreath.

I was attracted with mine destiny...

Ah, the hero, there was Naina!

I to her — and the fatal blame

For an impudent look to me was an award,

And I have learnt the love by the soul

With her heaven joy,

With her painful melancholy.

The half of the year has dashed away;

I have tremblingly opened to her,

Has told: «I love you, Naina».

But shy my sorrow

Naina with the proud was listened,

Only the own delights loving,

And indifferently answered:

«The Shepherd, I do not love you!»

And this king, who was lying at my feet on my table, kept saying, «I love you», and I said to him, «The Shepherd, I do not love you». And then I thought that to me were giving a new character — The Shepherd, I do not love you. Why is «Shepherd»? Because he grazes minds of other people, he controls them and directs them where he wants them, he feeds on their emotions, and he feels superior, although he does not have a material body. And why «I do not love you»? Because he is an asur and commands the minds of the people not for good deeds, and to suppress them and committing abominations through them, so «I do not love you». It was strange to me: how is it that the asuras have someone who does not have an ordinary physical body and who commands the minds of those who have a body by conducting the will of the asuras through them? But I thought that here, from below, we see little. And what if there really is something? Such asur, which is not spirit, not ghost, but for some reason has no physical body and sits in the minds of other people and commands them.

I was flooded with thoughts, as they, asuras, cause something like cystitis, thrush, and dysbiosis in a woman. She has everything in order with the female organs, there are no women's diseases, but they want to see her and check her. They force her to go to the gynecologist, in order to through the eyes of the gynecologist to look her in her intimate place, through the hands of the gynecologist to get inside her female organs and listen to the thoughts of the gynecologist about her. Looking at her as at horse in the market. From these thoughts felt so ashamed and disgusting. We can't resist them, although they, asuras, live here among us as ordinary men. But who gave them the right to enter, so to speak, the Holy of holies? Who gave them that right? Nobody. But they are brazenly violating our borders, invading our personal space, looking at us as at horses in the market.

And then I appealed to Krishna to give me this Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) on his punishment. And then I feel better and became calm. And I thought: what if it's true? I tuned in to him and gave him the order to send me all the information about himself. I received a lot of information about him, specifically that no one can kill him but me. And then I again tuned in to him. I remembered a screenshot of the «Mahabharata», where Balarama stands with a mace at the ready and beckons him to himself with hand, they say, go, go, right now I'll have done away with you. And I also beckoned to the Shepherd with my hand: come, come here…

And then I turned into a tremendous Cobra in space and saw this Shepherd as little dot somewhere far below. I looked at this dot from above and drilled him with my gaze, pierced him with such a powerful red beam, and then sucked him all as this dot into myself, and then I turned inside out, turning into a jellyfish. He fell on me as on jellyfish, like some kind of the patch, and began to grow into my scalding jelly body. He more and more drowned in me, in this scalding jelly, plunged completely and spread over it.

And he is not having his body, has long been accustomed to reside in the bodies of others and control them. He dissolved in my body and we became one, fused together. From that time until he was struck out, he was always with me, saw all my thoughts, saw what I saw, felt what I felt, heard what I heard. He could not control my mind, but in the same time he was fully dissolved in me and was having lived with me every moment of my life, with the moment, as I plunged his in myself as in jellyfish.

And when the Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) already was in me, spilled, dissolved in me, in the jelly-like body of a jellyfish, at me suddenly began a period of the active, involved listening to lectures of Srila Prabhupada, my Gurudeva, Indradyumna Swami, Bhakti Vikasha Swami. I periodically listened to them before, but when the Shepherd dissolved in me as in the jellyfish, I don't know what happened to me, but I concentrated almost continuously listened to these lectures. And all lectures were about the futility of being in this material world.

I listened to many lectures of Bhakti Vikasha Swami, not so often I listen to him, he has a very uncompromising lectures, but at that time I listened to his lectures continuously... About Western countries I listened to many lectures, about the refined animal existence of people in those supposedly advanced countries. About the end of Kali Yuga, what predictions in this regard. Also, I suddenly, for no reason listened to the entire two stories of the «Shrimad Bhagavatam» — about Sati, as she went to Daksha’s Sacrifice and what then was, and about Dhruva Maharaja.

At first, I didn't understand why I was so caught up in listening to these lectures, and then it became clear to me. After all, this Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) sat in me, saw all my thoughts, heard everything I hear, and I listened to these lectures not for myself, but for him. And it is on those topics that were necessary to him. He listened to so many lectures that he made great progress. And he saw my thoughts during the audition of lectures. It's amazing!

At some point I began to remember about my interactions in this life with two large asuras: with Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization, and with my Shri Ram. I began to remember how they force women to go to the gynecologist, so that through the eyes of the gynecologist look at her intimate place and through the hands of the gynecologist check her female organs inside. I was remembering the session with pillow in which we with Shri Ram learned, that when I'm between lives was looking for him, but he was not anywhere, some personalities came to me. They showed me what became of him, that he has become an asur, that now he has the nature of an asur. They showed me overlay on his asuric fine-material body, from the sight of which I was just shaking from shudder, rejection and disgust. They told me that I should forget about him forever and offered me another pair to choose from but I refused and went to dance dances of dedication to the Deities on the higher planets, and there I became the wife of the Deity Nrisimhadeva.

I was remembering it, and I was plunged into the feeling of universal sadness that could not put into words... I thought that I am protected by Nrisimhadev Himself, and other women were not so lucky and the asuras do what they want with them. And I thought: since I have come in this life to this my Shri Ram, then it is necessary to make sure that all this is not in vain. I thought I should do more of them, decapitate them, tear down the top of asuras, and in this mood I decided to do him again, Shepherd, I don't love you.

I was washing the dishes and threw my inner gaze on my inner screen in search of this Shepherd, but he was nowhere. He was sitting in me, at the very top of my head. I looked at this jellyfish, which is actually me, and I saw that this Shepherd is well immersed in her (in my) gelatinous body. I have turned on kirtan performed by Bhakti Tirtha Swami «jai jai radhe jai jai shyam jai jai jai vrindavan-dham» and I have forced the Shepherd to sing with me. Then I wanted to turn on the kirtan performed by my Gurudev, but the kirtan performed by Srila Prabhupada turned on by itself. I thought that Krishna know better what to turn on, I surrendered to Him and began to sing with Srila Prabhupada this kirtan, and then I saw some kind of air substance coming out of this Shepherd and rushing up.

And then I thought, I don't know what to do with this Shepherd, and I surrendered to Krishna. And then I began to remember the dawn of my Krishna consciousness, the temple on metro station Begovaya in Moscow, the Greeting the Deities — «Govinda», govindam adi-purusham tam aham bhajami, the voice of Yamuna Devi Dasi. I began to remember kirtan of Srila Prabhupada. Now I was singing this kirtan, while washing dishes, and in those days this kirtan sounded often during the prasad. I began to feel such nostalgia, such longing for that time, such an aching feeling, such craving to that atmosphere of my Krishna consciousness, that at some point I spontaneously began to turn to this Shepherd, personally to him, with a hot request to help me.

And I mentally all turned right to this Shepherd and turned into this plea to help me, that I want to Krishna and that he helped me in this. Intellectually, I understood that I am begging the wrong person, because he is an asur, but this prayer itself was pouring out of me, I myself was this prayer: «Help, help me, I want to Krishna, but I'm sitting here, I'm stuck here in the material world, I'm sitting with this Shri Ram, with these asuras, I'm fed up with you, you are vile creatures. It is necessary for your Hydra to demolish the head, completely, so that you can’t lower nature of good women, crush women. What are you even doing?»

I was understanding that I am addressing the wrong person, but I'm all turned into this prayer. I did not beg him, and I became this plea, as if I was not a woman, not a human, but this plea. And even my Shri Ram, somewhere in the far corner of my mind on my inner screen, came and was asking me puzzled what I was doing, whom I was begging? But I didn't look at him, what he's talking there... I was all pleading, and pleading this Shepherd, «Help me, I want to Krishna». I was all pleading him as if he can help me with this.

And at some point I felt that he was telling me that he would help. But I have to help him for that. And then I remembered just before this dish washing I had a similar conversation with a girl in my work, when I said that I would help her, for free, and she would instead pray to Krishna to help me. She agreed and said that she was going to the festival Sadhu-sanga tomorrow, that she would pray for me to the Deities, so that Krishna would help me. And so this Shepherd, reminding me of this situation with that girl, says me that he will help me to return to Krishna, but I have to help him.

He kind of told me that he doesn't have a material body, but I can do it for him. Like I told that girl... I told her I could do the job for her, because she is not in the subject, she is in this a zero and she needs to delve into all the details of the case in which I am a master. She will deal with this month, and I will do it in a couple of days. She will need more than a month to master this, because she starts from scratch, with minuses, and there are no guarantees, that she all correctly will understand and correctly will make. And I will do everything as it should, because I have been doing this for a long time, I am a pro, and she is nobody in this.

And this Shepherd also tells me that he does not have a material body and he can not do like me, and I can help him. And here I have a thought: now lasts Pitru Paksha (and it was September 7, 2017), days of help to those who have already left the body, who do not have a material body. And I thought, I'm observing a Pitru Paksha for the good of my mother and my ancestors who left the body. I'm chanting one circle of japa for them and reading one verse of Bhagavad Gita.

And I decided: I will chant for his good the whole Pitru Paksha (until September 19 inclusive) one circle of Hare Krishna mantra every day, one verse of Bhagavad Gita, so that he became a devotee of Krishna, and I every day will eat a leaf of the sacred plant tulasi, offered to Krishna — for his good. He doesn't have a body, and he can't do it, but I can do it. I'm in. I told him that if harinama will be, then I will definitely go to harinama — for his good, as if he personally takes part in harinama. I told him that I will go to the Sunday program Hare Krishna, will stand before the Deities and asked Krishna for him. I told him, «I will help you, and you help me, ask Krishna to return me to Him». And he said, «Ok, I agree. Just help me».

And when I was washing the dishes and listening the kirtan of Srila Prabhupada, we made a contract with this Shepherd. I will help him to get rid of his disembodied existence when he does not have a material body and when he grazes minds of other people and feeds on their emotions, he feels superior, although he does not have a material body, and he will help me when he is free from such a hopeless position and from an asuric existence and becomes a devotee of Krishna.

And I immediately, on the same day, began to observe this sadhana for his good, sat down and chanted the circle of japa for his good and one verse from the Bhagavad Gita. When I told about all this in the 76th series of my novel «My Roman. I’m asur’s wife”, there were a succession of screenshots from «Mahabharata», where it was told about a woman who is waiting for him: that the liana does not run from the tree, that he is the bow of Arjuna, that the bow Gandiva lays in the room of Panchali. Then I did not understand what said in those screenshots, but then through them I was told about his future. Krishna in one of the last screenshots told me to put an end to his suffering and I promised Krishna that I would do it.

I was keeping faith and was fulfilling my part of the agreement with that The Shepherd, I do not love you. Every day I was reading the circle of japa, the Hare Krishna mantra on the japa mala rosary for his good and the verse of Bhagavad Gita. And when I was putting it off for the evening, he stood all day in my mind, as if reminding me not to forget. Those days I constantly saw his eyes in front of me. Such a smart, understanding all look. I actually saw eyes appearing on the flowerpot on my window in front of me. These eyes were very clearly visible, such insightful, they looked at me with such a feeling…

And on the Wallpaper in the place where I sat and chanted japa, through the pattern on the Wallpaper suddenly appeared a man's face. And seemed he to be looking straight into my soul, as they say, although I am this soul. Most interesting that before I have not seen in the patterns on the Wallpaper male faces and then, too, no matter how much I tried nor searched, the man no one time has not stood out, but at that time he somehow manifested himself and seemed to look at me. And I even saw his mood and kind of thoughts. And on the flower pot was the same way. How amazing it is! These eyes appeared in the Wallpaper picture and in the shadow of the relief of the flower pot just when that the Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) was with me.

We became friends. He was shepherding the minds a lot of people, not having his own body. He had successfully put into practice many cunning plans, operations, manipulated people's minds, carried out the will of those for whom he worked. He saw so much dirt that it was impossible to surprise him with anything. He saw everything. And here he is with me. Turns out he at will came to me, he intentionally showed himself to me when he saw a chance to get rid of this joyless existence. And when he like that figure of the king was lying before me on the table and saying, «I love you», it was also true, no matter how strange it sounded. And when I at Pitru Paksha, the days of remembrance of the dead, those who left the body, began to fulfill my part of the agreement and chant Hare Krishna and read a verse from Bhagavad Gita for this Shepherd, I also began to feel love for him.

We became a friendly team. He stood in front of me all days, just to remind me, because he knew I am forgetful. It gave me an understanding that it is very important for him. And that it is generally very important. If it didn't matter, why would he stand in front of me all days with such a considerate, understanding, and loving look? He is fed up to graze the minds of other people. I was wondering what future he might have. I wanted to determine a very good future for him.

I was thinking a lot and was offering him any directions, but he stubbornly showed his will, I felt it. He as if directed me what he wants. At that time I was reading Valmiki Prabhu's book about sankirtana. And I saw clearly the Parallels between this Shepherd and Valmiki Prabhu. And Valmiki Prabhu was once a kind of authority, could turn any business in the right direction for them, and the Shepherd also grazed the minds of other people, including large asuras, to send them in the direction that was necessary for those with whom this Shepherd cooperated.

I have long not been surprised by such non-random coincidences. I have read the book of Valmiki Prabhu three times, and this Shepherd read it with me, and he was very impressed that he expressed his desire to engage in sankirtana. I tried many times to offer him something else, but the Shepherd was adamant: he liked very much the personality of Valmiki Prabhu and what he was doing, that is, sankirtana, the distribution of Srila Prabhupada's books and knowledge of Krishna. He decided be sankirtaner that is a hero who doesn't hesitate making sacrifices in order to others can join the spiritual family of Krishna and return into spiritual world.

And then I decided to say it out loud in the next, 77th series of my novel «My Roman. I'm asura's wife» to look at the screenshots that appear on my desktop, changing every 30 seconds in random order, to see what they want from me in this matter and where it is better to define him. And so I began to broadcast that the Shepherd chose for himself in his future sankirtana, like Valmiki Prabhu. And sankirtana not for money, and how Valmiki Prabhu — with full surrender to Krishna, for the donation.

He will not set the price of books on his sankirtan, but the money to him and through him into ISKCON will go a lot, very much, large flows, because he will be very lucky and will not be focused on getting money. This Shepherd saw everything in this world, he sat in so many minds and grazed so many people, that this rat race for money and this charms of materialistic life does not attract him at all, he saw everything and want to spread knowledge how to get out of the material world and return into the spiritual world.

I said that he will always be a very lucky man and a very lucky preacher, luck always will be with him, because I want it. Valmiki Prabhu is a fortunate preacher, but this Shepherd will be an incredibly lucky preacher, much luckier, he will preach where no one can go, where ordinary people are denied access, but before him all the doors will be open. As well as he was penetrating in any mind and commanding there, so will be opened all the doors of this world before him. And he will communicate with people in such a way that even the most hardened skeptics and opponents of Krishna consciousness will agree with him and will accept Krishna consciousness. He'll be such a great preacher.

He will take with him in his future lives his ability to graze the minds of other people, he knows their entire lowdown, all the complexes and human desires, he has seen so many of these minds and grazed so many people that he can handle anyone. And this skill he will take in his future lives on sankirtana. He will preach to the very big and influential personalities of this world, the powerful, the elite, so to speak, the top, those to whom ordinary preachers can not get, but he will be incredibly lucky, and they will bringing him closer to themselves to talk with such an unusual person.

And he will convert them all to Krishna consciousness, because this ability to influence the minds and knowledge of human nature will pass with him into his future lives. All he has gained, all he knew and could, when he was without a material body and grazing the minds of other people, when he had asuric nature, he will use in sankirtana, distributing books of Srila Prabhupada and Krishna consciousness. As soon as I dissolved him in myself as in a jellyfish, I've listened to lectures of Srila Prabhupada, Bhakti Vikasha Swami, whole days and even nights without stopping, and he listened to with me, and he accepted it.

He is very smart, he has such a smart, heartfelt look, and he wants to spread this knowledge to other people. And since he is such a great Shepherd, who grazes the minds of other people, I have determined the same future for him — to graze the minds of other people, spreading Krishna consciousness them. He will preach for influential, mighty, great people, big men, with money, for very, very important people and having the resource to do something in this world. Many lives he will preach and sankritan Krishna consciousness, he will deserve a return into the spiritual world, he will lead many people to Krishna consciousness, into ISKCON, and such people he will lead — intelligent, thinking, having a resource to really influence the fate of the world and endowed with power.

And since he will bring many into Krishna consciousness, many will be grateful to him, and all will bless him. The devotees will blessing him because he will be very large sankirtaner, very successful, fortunate, famous, prominent. Those people whom he will bring to Krishna consciousness will also be very grateful to him and will blessing him. And he will accumulated so many blessings that the Lord will take him into the spiritual world. And since he has promised me and we have a contract with him, he will ask Krishna to take me into His spiritual world long before this Kali Yuga will enter its full rights and begin to untwist its flywheel in full force, because I do not want to be there, in full swing Kali Yuga, when complete debauchery will begins.

And when I said all this, I expressed the wish that in his future lives he would not have any relations with women, thinking that it would hinder his activities, that the family would limit him in his sankirtana, will act as a burden, and I expressed my desire that he in his future was free from this, that he was a pure preacher, a brahmachary, a man who holds celibate and not has close relations and interaction with the opposite sex. But when I said it, popped up a screenshot with the words «I do not accept this condition». I did not pay attention to it, but after a while I was somehow given to know that this is an important condition and it must be taken into account.

When in the 77th series of my novel «My Roman. I'm asura's wife» I was telling about the future of this Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you), at some point on my computer appeared a screenshot from «Mahabharata» where Krishna said He would still have to punish the Shepherd. I felt sorry for him, but I thought I could not see anything from here, but Krishna could see everything. And most likely it is the case that this Shepherd has done so many abominations that it is impossible not to punish him. And I thought: who will punish him and how? Krishna will punish him when He leads him to the next life (although his existence cannot be called life, because he does not have a material body), or should I give him some kind of execution? And how?

I didn't even have a hint of how he could be sent to the next lives if he didn't have body. I was very sorry for him, and the further, the sorrier. But then that figure of the king from «Kinder Surprise» fell on my Desk face down on stomach. And I kind of realized that this Shepherd is ready to receive this punishment, in order to free and go to his future, which is revealed to him in this my novel. I'm told that he will be great, very fortunate, successful and famous sankirtaner, that is a hero who doesn't hesitate making sacrifices in order to others can join the spiritual family of Krishna and return into spiritual world.

He will spread the books of Srila Prabhupada to many people, especially to the powerful. Like Valmiki Prabhu, but much bigger, resonantly, more globally, in other areas, on another, high level. This Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) will bring into Krishna consciousness, into ISKCON many intelligent, educated, sane, thinking people, who also have power and resources, who can have a real impact on the fate of the world and people. And through him will go a lot of money into Krishna consciousness, into ISKCON.

There, in the 77th series, I said that I did not want him to get married and had some kind of relationship with the women, but this place came out a screenshot that this condition is not accepted. I thought: Yes, mataji need protection and it is wrong to deprive them of this protection. Also during the recording of this, 77th series, when I wanted to say that he will be to sankirtana in Russia, the record jammed, the program glitched, and these words about Russia flew out of the record. From this I realized that he will actively to sankirtana around the world. That's better. But how to do it? How will I send him to his future lives?

I did not imagine it, and on these my thoughts this king from «Kinder Surprise» fell again, but on his back, on his side, raising his right hand and as if blessing and assuring me that everything will necessarily work. How? I had no idea, especially if I felt so sorry for him. But when I started recording the 78th series of my novel, all the pity for him disappeared, as there were screenshots symbolizing the lowering of female nature, forcing women to sexual interaction with them, asuras, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level, but this sex is no different from real sex, because all this is happening.

I began to remember what they, the asuras, did to me, how my Shri Ram was activating the force methods and the estrus mode, as in animals during the mating period, at me, trying to throw me, woman loving Krishna and singing mantras, down, to the animal level. Krishna saved me. But no one saved the other women, and they fell victim to their impact. And from these thoughts I went into such a rage that I wanted to immediately tear apart this Shepherd, but I was restrained by the fact that was the Pitru Paksha period, that is two weeks in September, when the living can help those who have already left the body, somehow give them an impulse to their elevation. And I gave my word to this Shepherd that I would observe vow of Pitru Paksha for the sake of his release.

This Shepherd continued to read along with me book of Valmiki Prabhu about sankritana «Sankirtana Yajna, or the Dance of Rasa of Lord Chaitanya in Kali Yuga», and he decided to address the asuras through the words of this book. He knew, that asuras necessarily look these series of my novel “My Roman. I’m asur’s wife”, so as await my announcement, whom I'm gonna expunge the next, and also that I'd say of value in stream current in my speech words. And the Shepherd decided to explain to all of them, showing them the story of this book about sankirtana in the cemetery. After all, there in the allegorical form it was said about that Shepherd.

And at his request I inserted in 78th series of my novel a piece from this book, reading it verbatim, as that was his wish:

***

— Well, I understand everything, but I can't understand two things. We all know you very well and for years. You can beat everyone; there was not a single case that you would fail. You can convince anyone to do what you need, with you is very difficult to argue. You always brought so many arguments and reasons that we always came out victorious. But! Who could have confused YOU?! What sect was able to confuse YOU?! This I can not realize! It's impossible!

And I told him:

— Friend, you know I'm not a fool. Look how much cases we've did together. You saw I'm not a fool?

— Yes, I respect you for that.

— So here is imagine, what people have been able confuse me! Do you have any idea what their level is?! You know that I will not go anywhere haphazardly. And if I got here, you know how serious people are?!

He:

— Well, Yes, I do!

Everyone thought for a moment.

— Friends, while there is time, grab luck, do not be suckers.

I got your backpack with Srila Prabhupada's books, opened:

— Take it, here everything is written.

***

Through these words the Shepherd personally spoke to the asuras. He said them all know him long time, that he was leading the minds of the people, that no one could resist his influence, that he could to confuse anyone, to do as they need, that all asuras is respected him and even feared him, because he was leading and their minds. He said that all the situations in which he took his invisible part, were successful for those on whose side he was. He said that those with whom he worked, always achieved their goals and no one was able to affect him.

And he told the asuras that look, I went to the Svetlana Vinodavani, who you all know as the very Mata Hari, which is so many lives was killing the strongest asuras. He told asuras that he was always leading the minds of others, but now he was convinced by the philosophy of Krishna consciousness, lectures of Srila Prabhupada, Bhakti Vikasha Swami, «Shrimad Bhagavatam» which he listened to with me, when he was in me as dissolved as in a jellyfish.

And he told asuras that he is not a fool, that he is very clever and they all know it and that he actually took this path seriously and saw quite clearly for himself and for all living beings the way out of the wheel of samsara and return into the spiritual world. The Shepherd said to the asuras through the story I included in the 78th series of my novel at his request that his choice is well thought out and true. And if he came here himself, it's very, very serious. And he told all the asuras that, while there was such an opportunity, they need to follow his example and come to me to striking out them off the list of asuras and to determine their future as Krishna's devotees with their return into the spiritual world.

Shepherd began to fulfill his sankirtana mission, not yet freed from their disembodied existence. But he's already preached. He’s already preached for the asuras. Through me. In the 78th series of my novel. It's amazing! I realized that it was he, this Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) want to convey to the awareness of the asuras his implementation and lend a helping hand. Just when coming to me, he had already started what he would do many, many lives, but already having a body, his own, ordinary human body.

He himself came to me and said that he agreed to any execution, just to take the path, which he saw when I was recording my novel «My Roman. I’m asur’s wife» and told all this to asuras, both directly, and in an allegorical form, between lines. And he was completely sure in me that I will succeed in it that I will be able to release him from this incorporeal existence and make him a great fortunate and successful sankirtaner, that he in his future lives will lead to Krishna consciousness onto the path of return into the spiritual world many, many people, and a very high level.

And then, in the 78th series, I corrected his future by saying that in the 77th series, through screenshots with Arjuna's bow, which is in Panchali's room, I was told that he, like bow Gandiva, would be in his future lives in some Panchali's room. That there is some woman Panchali who is waiting for him. His significant other. And that they will be husband and wife in those future lives. That they will be faithful to each other, that all their future lives she will be his only woman, because there came out a screenshot with the words «no more, no less». «No less» means that he will not be alone, because a couple is two people, and less than two is one. But and «no more». More than a couple is three, four, and so on. «No more» means that he won't have other women. Only she will be with him.

For me, these revelations were so grandiose... I realized that some Panchali, some woman, is waiting for him and for a long time. That she is waiting for him there, between lives, and she looks at the whole situation and helps me, she is in my team of forces of light that with me, who insure me, protect me and guide me, give me signs. And she told me in the 77th series through the screenshot from «Mahabharata» with the words «We do not accept this condition» that she did not agree that he will was without her in his next lives. She told me that she has done so much to deserve his return to her, and has every right to that.

Realizing this, I with even greater zeal began to chant for him on a circle of the Hare Krishna mantra all Pitru Paksha, to read the verse from Bhagavad Gita and I decided that will do anything, so to release him from this incorporeal existence and return him to his Panchali. In the 12th series of «Mahakali» was the story of Bhandasura, who had no a body, showed me how Mahakali killed Bhandasura. She gave him the five material elements that make up the body, and then when he received the material body in this way, she killed him.

And this story showed me that something like that must be done with the Shepherd. Need to give him an ordinary material body from ordinary material elements, and then, when he has this body, to kill him. Tactics and strategy, how to send the Shepherd in his future lives, began to emerge, and it remained only to observe the vow made by me at the Pitru Paksha.

Then I remembered the book of Snegov «People as gods», in which the brain of the Third planet, which floated in some ball and coordinated space, planets, curved space, was very powerful, but had no body and wanted to gain it, came up with a move, how to realize his dream. He set in motion outer space, could destroy spaceships, entire fleets, annihilate outer space, but he could not go beyond the ball, because he had no body. And he did everything he could to help the humans and save them, and he then asked to put him in the place of the deceased brain in the head of the dragon. The earthlings did this, and brain got himself a body and his dream came true, he became a wise talking flying dragon.

And I assumed that, probably, after Pitru Paksha I will be given some other great asur onto his striking out. I'll knock him out of his asuric body and will send him to his future lives, and then I will put Shepherd inside this empty body and almost immediately throw him out of there, and so he'll be free from that cursed condition and will fly into his future lives, to meet his Panchali.

I thought a lot about this Panchali, which, as it turned out, is waiting for this Shepherd and for a long time. I thought: she has been waiting for him for a long time, she is not looking for others, and she did a lot to deserve his return to herself. How amazing it is! She didn't run to look for someone else. I felt more and more respect for her, and I wanted to help her. I thought: what did she do to deserve that I came to these asuras to pull out this Shepherd and return him to her? I many lives was borning in asuric worlds and was destroying the strongest asuras, I was risking myself, but how she was risking herself and what sacrifices she was making I did not imagine, but my confidence that I would be able to release the Shepherd and send him to his future lives as devotees of Krishna, grew and strengthened.

I saw at the screenshots from the 12th series of «Mahakali» that Mahakali blessed Rati, the wife of Kamadev, to reunification with Kamadev. It means that there is the blessing to reunion Panchali with the Shepherd and will succeed everything. And then quite spontaneously happened session with pillow. It's been so long since I've had sessions with pillow. In January 2017, Shri Ram attached to me four his asuras-wolfhounds at a subtle energy level, so that they would not let me into our deep layers with him, and after that the sessions with pillow stopped. And from January to mid-September there was not a single session with pillow.

But after my reasoning about Panchali in the 79th series of my novel «My Roman. I’m asur’s wife» happened session with pillow. It was September 13, until the end of Pitru Paksha there was still a week. Pitru Paksha is a time when the living can help their ancestors and those who have left the body, to rise and be free from sinful reactions. And before going to sleep, when I hugged my favorite pillow, suddenly words of love flowed out of me: «My loved, love, my man, my husband». These words were like words of all the other sessions with pillow, but then flowed out the other words and in that tone that is not peculiar to me. And then I realized that it was session with pillow not me with Shri Ram, but the Shepherd with Panchali and she was talking him these words. These were the words «I want you», and with such a feeling…

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