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Manipulations of my consciousness in order to I leave Shri Ram





I looked at these «I want you» in amazement and clearly realized that now this Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) has the opportunity to touch with his second half. In those days I had a flurry of sad thoughts. I remembered how my Shri Ram wanted to connect me with some gorgeous man when I started recording my video and telling about the asuras.

Then Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization, and my Shri Ram decided to stop my broadcast about asuras, connecting me with a gorgeous man. As was then said coach karate on the phone: «We will act according to the same scheme, but from other phone. At least you'll be rich, and I will make everything to make you happy». Shri Ram wanted to trick me connecting me with some good man, which mind he would press to interact with me through the body of that man. I felt so bitter…

I didn't know why he wanted to connect me with some gorgeous man instead of himself in physical reality. About this I learned much later, when recorded 181st series of my novel and has begun transcribing video into text, but discovered obscure places in event presentation, has become repair chronology of the time and me has opened hidden. In that period, I found out why Shri Ram was going to bring up to me his double, about which I would think it was my Shri Ram. But this knowledge came much later, during recording of April 18, 2018, the 214th and 215th series of my novel, and in the fall of 2017, I did not know why Shri Ram wanted to do it.

I felt very sad. I was disgusted when I imagined that I would be stroking someone else's man and would have sex with him, thinking that this is my Shri Ram, and Shri Ram through his body would be with me, but body would not his, but a stranger man. I was so disgusted, I wanted to disappear from here immediately, but stopped by the idea that the children are not to blame, that their mom is such. I must live. For the sake of children. They need me. As all this is bitter! How sad it is. I was so sorry that I came to him...

After that I began to think that if I consider that I was a kind of Mata Hari in their Asuric worlds, it is not known what I was doing there to destroy their strongest asuras. Maybe there I was with many men to carry out my mission. I didn't know how I was destroying them then. I gave Shri Ram access to my files where I was Mata Hari in their asuric worlds, and then he opened the veil over those events, but only slightly. I knew only that I was born there and killed them. But, what I did there, how I lived, Shri Ram had not opened to me. But the realization that I had so many lives just to kill them was enough above the roof for me to fall into the abyss of self-pity.

And then I thought that I was also distinguished in this life: in Moscow, when I was married, I, as it turned out, had an invisible interaction with Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization. And I thought that this attitude towards me Shri Ram, that he was not confused by the fact that I would be with someone else's man, thinking that this is my Shri Ram, quite naturally. And how else should he think about a woman who for the sake of fulfilling her mission to destroy the asuras went to this…

I remembered how Kuru had tried to undress Draupadi in that Royal meeting and how they shouted to her that if she has a few more husbands, no difference. Like, such a woman by default cannot be pure, they say, she's like a prostitute. And to me the same attitude of this Shri Ram. He wanted to act according to the same scheme, but from other phone, to be with me through a different man. But the contact of bodies would be with another man. Such an attitude to me, as to a prostitute. Like, you as Mata Hari in asuric worlds slept with many to destroy those strongest asuras, you were with Moscow Borka, although you were married, and your husband was good. But nothing stopped you, you wanted to destroy Borka, so you neglected everything, and nobody was spared, and you accomplished your mission.

I thought Yes, it's all true. And no wonder even my Shri Ram thinks I'm a fallen woman who doesn't care who she's with. I did a lot of what went on there in Moscow, with the Moscow Borka, to obtain from him the promise to give something important to the one who I go. Something I've done, that Borka gave his word and then executed it. But he didn't want to do it... I forced him to do it in my first video. Really, who cares if there will be any more men with me? I'm used to it... And I thought Prabhu Sasha was totally right when he told me that I had come to this Shri Ram in vain. He does not deserve it.

I thought that these thoughts are mine. In fact, it was not me who thought, but these thoughts were sent to me, it was a manipulation of my consciousness. I said in my video that since my Shri Ram is not with me, then it must be done so that it all was not in vain and send all the asuras to their future lives. And some of them decided to bring these emotions into me and plunge me into the slough of despond, so that I would not want to be with Shri Ram anymore, so that I stop destroying the asuras. I saw clearly that this was a manipulation of my consciousness. But I agreed with it completely. It's true.

And then other thoughts came to me, about Janmashtami in 2016, when Shri Ram was trying to throw me into another man to get rid of me, because he had a very good woman all summer. That's before he had a financial collapse and almost went bankrupt, broke and homeless. Then he manipulated my mind on Janmashtami to press me into there, to that man.

I was thinking that if he was doing this to me, so he doesn't need me. After all, the arrow of my internal compass is always aimed at him, but he tried so many times to redirect it to some other men, and from this it follows that he does not need me. After all, when the compass needle is focuses to another man, and the energy is transferred there. And it was thrown into my mind that since he was trying so hard to redirect the arrows of my compass to another man, then my energy is not really needed him. and this whole situation looked like I clung to him and do not tear myself away, even though he very diligently tries to tear me away from himself.

I thought that these thoughts were mine, but it was actually another manipulation of my consciousness. I thought someone needed to I turned away from Shri Ram and went away from him. But I was in full agreement with those who did these manipulations: why did I come to him? Why am I holding on to him so long? As if I grabbed him and I can do nothing about it, I can't unhook myself. I don't respect myself at all. Alas. But Krishna told me to be with Shri Ram, and I will. I want to Krishna. More and more.

I spent the whole day thinking about how Shri Ram had been bad to me. I was thinking about how Shiva in «Devon Ke Dev Mahadev» gave Ravana the sword Chandrahas and said that if Ravana would abuse that sword then it would return to Shiva. But Shri Ram abused me a lot, and I'm still with him. I thought maybe it was for something? But the memories kept coming up and coming up... And I had a big disgust for him, and I wanted to leave him for good, to Krishna removed him from my life files altogether. Fully.

I had a strong desire to avenge him for all he has done to me. I thought I'd take revenge on him by leaving him. 1.5 years I was with him. Once he lived before me, and very fun, he had a stormy life. He had a lot of female individuals, whose nature he broke like a big asur and who became weak-willed rags in his hands, who are ready to do everything that will come to his mind, Yes, without his personal physical presence, somehow in the distance, but the fact is the fact. Fun!

I wanted to take revenge on him, so he would suffer. He's has fun with women with a broken woman's nature, where he's an overlord, and all ready to please him according to his desire. I thought that leaving him would not be the cruelest revenge, since his merry existence with those women would continue, but his life with me would be a worthy revenge. Here is this on fact revenge!

And so I succumbed to those manipulations with my falling into humiliation and into my reactions to it. At some point, I came to think that it is not necessary to throw this gift of Gurudev and Nrisimhadev. Nrisimhadev somehow showed me that Shri Ram is a gift of Nrisimhadev to me. And Nrisimhadev was offended when I didn't appreciate His gift. And Gurudev in the video with the answers to my letter held out me the ring in palm, as if giving to me Shri Ram. And I have decided that I will not offend Nrisimhadev and my Gurudev and I will not walk away from Shri Ram. Although he is such.

I thought someone was trying so hard to turn me away from Shri Ram, even though Nrisimhadev and my Gurudev told me to be with him, no matter what. And I decided that it is necessary to punish them, the manipulators of consciousness. I see they're big on mind manipulation. Of course, they are absolutely right: Shri Ram behaved very badly with me, but these derogatory thoughts about me and his attitude to me do not add pleasant emotions to me. I told them that I agree with them completely, but Krishna told me to be with Shri Ram and I will be with him.

And I also thought that someone taught my Shri Ram and these mind manipulators all these tricks, all these methods, when «We will act according to the same scheme, but from other phone». I thought they studied somewhere from someone. They have some teacher, and we need have done away with this teacher. I thought that this teacher was probably great, because my Shri Ram is a great asur, that is, he has reached great heights on their asuric hierarchical ladder.

By this time, the Pitru Paksha came to an end. Every day I honestly was chanting the Hare Krishna mantra for the Shepherd and was reading one shloka of the «Bhagavad Gita» for him, and I fasted on Indira Ekadashi on water. And I gave all the benefit of observing this Ekadashi to the Shepherd so that he would be free from his curse of disembodied existence, from his sinful reactions and be able to reunite with his Panchali and go with her to Krishna.

I decided that immediately after the Pitru Paksha I would deal with the teacher of Shri Ram, knock him out of his body, then I put disembodied Shepherd into empty shell of teacher, and then beat him out of there. And also I will have done away with those manipulators of consciousness, which, though right, but gave me a lot of unpleasant moments and for this will be punished. About the teacher of Shri Ram I said that no his qualifications will not help him, that here is another scope that are beyond his reach, and he cannot do anything about it. And I said that in his next lives teacher of Shri Ram will also serve Krishna.

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https://youtu.be/BP7IBftCda8

Teacher of Shri Ram

When some asuras had done their vile manipulations of my consciousness causing in me derogatory thoughts about myself and about what Shri Ram does not feel the need to be with me, they were raising in my memory many sad memories of this. It was thought about that he tried his best to get rid of me, and therefore did squeezing me out of his space and throwing into another man on Janmashtami, and then integrated into overall structure of our intimate interaction another man at the energy level, and then he was going to connect me with some gorgeous man instead of himself in physical reality. These asuras were throwing thoughts into my mind that I don't respect myself at all if I'm still with him. That he has no respect for me and thinks that if I many times got birth in asuric worlds to kill the strongest asuras and it is not known what I did for this, obviously not the best, then I don't care who I'm with. That I don't care who I'm with. That for me the main is to perform my task, and what kind of man with me, I don't care that I'm as prostitute. That is unknown, what services I provided for Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization, because of which he gave me the floor to give something to my future husband, Shri Ram. These asuras were throwing thoughts into my mind that Shri Ram knows about all this and does not consider me worthy of respect and good attitude to myself as a person and as a woman.

When all these derogatory thoughts were thrown into my mind by some asuras in order to cause rejection from Shri Ram and a strong desire to leave him, I remembered that Krishna and Gurudev gave me signs to be with Shri Ram, whatever happens. And I by a strong-willed effort stopped the flow of self-immolation flowing through my consciousness. I saw very clearly that this was a very successful manipulation of my consciousness, that all this was influence from outside on me, and I decided that they made a mistake deciding to bring me to such a depressing state.

I thought that Shri Ram is also a big fan of manipulation of consciousness and that someone had taught it him. Someone taught him to not only manipulations of consciousness, but also those methods that ruin the female nature, making from normal women against their will weak-willed toys in the hands of the asuras. And I thought that someone is a great teacher of asuras. And I said that now we will have done away with him, because the teacher is responsible for his disciples. If they are wrong, he must correct them, and if he agrees with what they are doing and even teaches them this, and this is fundamentally wrong, then he is doubly responsible.

And then I tuned in to this teacher of Shri Ram. It was when I chanted my daily circles of the Hare Krishna mantra. I sat down to chant japa and during that time I tuned in to the teacher of Shri Ram. I saw on my inner screen a large bright hole, a kind of wide corridor at the level of the heart between me and the teacher. And he looked out of that hole right in my eyes, and I looked him in the eyes. I chanted the mantra, docking with him.

And inside him I saw some libraries, big tall shelves, all filled with books, and suddenly from those shelves of his libraries into me on that wide corridor the piles of books flew. After all those books flew into me, I decided to turn on the Hare Krishna mantra inside him and began to blow the sounds of Hare Krishna mantra into the corridor between us. That hole between us began to expand, became a big golden foramen, and between us with him went a good synchronization, coupling, and I turned on a mantra inside him. After that, I saw myself as a huge Cobra in a combat stance high in space, and out of me went some powerful fire current.

The same day, and it was September 19, 2017, the last day of Pitru Paksha, when I did a lot of to help the Shepherd to get rid of his curse of the incorporeal existence. At the beginning of the Pitru Paksha we signed a contract that I will honor it for his sake, and that's Pitru Paksha came to an end. I was in the 12th series of the series «Mahakali» showed what to do with the Shepherd — it was necessary to give him someone's body, endowing it with the elements of which the body consists, and then, so to speak, kill.

And then I assumed that they would give me some very cool asur, whom I would beat out of his body, and then I would put in his empty shell an incorporeal Shepherd, he would merge with this body, and then I would knock him out of it and send him to his future lives. And I thought: who is this big asur who is suitable for this task? And it turned out that for this role the teacher of Shri Ram came up. The teacher of the asuras. He is a very large magnitude in their asuric world. How great was the Shepherd, that they gave for him such a great teacher of asuras.

September 19 came, I kept the vow of Pitru Paksha for the Shepherd. I was given a teacher of Shri Ram, I had already synchronized with him, I pumped out of him all his knowledge, all the books of his mental library, and it was time to start the operation to eliminate this teacher, and then the Shepherd. But I was very interested in the personality of this teacher. And I was given a story about it. Day in VKontakte in the group «Mahabharata» posted a post about Karna. I have long noticed that eventualities are not at all random.

And I immediately realized that through this story about Karna I in an allegorical form set out the true story of this teacher, which I voiced in the 83rd series of my novel «My Roman. I’m asur’s wife”. In it I said that Karna was a great Archer. And parallel to my words about Karna there was a projection on this great teacher, on the secret of his origin and appearance on the asuric Olympus.

An Archer is someone who shoots. Also an Archer is someone who has look. I pronounced the word «лук» in Russian, it denotes a bow, a weapon for shooting with arrows. But the sound of this word in English means a look. The Russian word «лук» is heard as the English word «look». That is, an Archer is someone who has some powerful bow, a look by which he can shoot. It`s when at the energy level let the beam out of himself to either do something, or kill, or to achieve goals. That is, I was said here that this teacher had a powerful bow, a ray-gaze at the energy level.

I also said that Karna was the eldest son of Kunti, who was born to her before she got married. And there, in the 83rd series of my novel “My Roman. I’m asur’s wife”, I said that Kunti didn't give birth to Karna. She received him as a result of the blessing. She had a mantra, she chanted it to Sun God, he appeared before her, and she had a child without the usual conception and normal childbirth. Yes, I was saying all this as if about Kunti, about the mother of the five Pandavas, from the Mahabharata, but saying all this, I was simply voicing what I thought was necessary, clearly realizing that in my words there is a mystery of the origin of this teacher of Shri Ram and that I should talk not about Kunti and Karna, but about this teacher of Shri Ram and all those asuras.

The very history of Kunti and Karna I had the right to present not as it was actually. What I voiced in my novel, in my video, was a description in the allegorical form of the history of this teacher of Shri Ram. And in these words about the fact that Kunti chanted the mantra and there appeared before her the Sun God, was hidden the mystery of the origin of this teacher. That there was some girl, an unmarried, a virgin. And before her was some kind of RA. Because RA is the Sun God of the Egyptians. And also the RA is the degree at asuric hierarchy, that is to say, special position, which has the right to occupy the asur, who reached great heights in his asuric existence and who can lead big asuric organization, like a spider, holding in its paws the filaments of his web.

And in my words it was revealed to asuras that this their great teacher was conceived by some RA from some virgin who did not give birth to him. Because I said that Kunti had a baby without a normal conception and a normal birth. From this I realized that some great asur, RA, conceived this teacher from some virgin not in the usual for people way. That is, he spent the fertilization in contactless sex, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy level, because the usual conception was not.

But the asuras are able to conceive their children in contactless sex, without personal presence, and the woman may not even guess what is happening to her, when she starts having gorgeous orgasms, when she is as if alone, there are no man with her, but at the same time she completely was immersed in the a deep orgasm of incredible power. And this orgasm stretching incredibly long and not letting her out. As if she has a real sex, but with whom, if there is no one?

And some great asur, RA, had done it with a virgin, a girl who didn't know a man yet. And inside her, in her female organs, settled their asuric baby, who could sit in her as much as necessary and wait at her to happen an ordinary sex with an ordinary man and a normal, ordinary conception. Then settled inside her baby conceived by the great asur, RA, without the usual conception, could to find his physical shell and be born as their child, child of that girl and ordinary man.

But I voiced such a version that Karna appeared at Kunti without the usual conception and without the usual birth. That is, this RA conceived the asuric baby who later became a great teacher of the asuras, in contactless sex with the virgin, but she did not give birth to him. That is, he was extracted from her. That was as Shri Ram extracted from me asuric baby who was conceived in me by Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization (without usual conception, I had no sex with him, all this was at the energy level, I didn’t even know him and didn’t guess what it was). Also, then Shri Ram extracted from me conceived by us the boy and the girl. And then he was very surprised that thereafter blood did not flow like during menstruation. But my stomach ached mercilessly, as if something was actually cut out of it.

And that RA subjected some kind of virgin to such a torment. He first conceived with her that teacher. He conceived with her without his usual conception, without his presence, without contact of physical bodies, and then he took conceived foetus out, cut him out of her and sewed him into some other woman who gave birth to him, in ordinary childbirth, and who raised him. How much I have discovered about the origin of their great teacher. They didn't even know that their great teacher was like this. But, probably, conceived in this way foetus are not eligible to become teacher. But he became. It turned out to be a big shock for the entire asuric community.

Then I'm in the course of the presentation of the history of Karna said that he was raised in a family of a charioteer and no one really knew about his true origin. That is, the teacher of Shri Ram was cut out of his real mother, who was a virgin, in some kind of subtle, fine-material form, and was sewn into another woman, and it was the charioteer family. What is charioteer? This is the one whose all events in life are a projection and a guide for carrying a large organization like at asuras.

How I am such a charioteer of Shri Ram. He is RA, there is a great asuric organization under him, and everything that happens in my life is signs, tips about what is happening there, in his life and in his organization and projection on it. He is able to decipher information, as if embedded in some encrypted form in the events in my life. He is able to see which of them are a projection of what is happening there.

And the teacher of Shri Ram was sewn into such a family of a charioteer that would give such guidance to some of the asuras to lead their organization. And teacher of Shri Ram grew up in this family. He could not become the teacher of asuras, according to his position. But he became a teacher because I told that Karna had become a great Archer by telling Parashurama that he was a brahman, even though he was not a brahman. And Parashurama was accepting as his disciples only brahmans. And in the same way, teacher of Shri Ram became a teacher and an Archer, that is, the owner of some powerful gaze-bow that could kill anyone.

Parashurama gave Karna all the knowledge, and then it was revealed to him that Karna had deceived him. And Parashurama told Karna that in the moments of mortal danger he would forget all his knowledge he had received in an unjust way, and it would not help him in any way. In these words, there was a continuation of the history of the teacher of Shri Ram. He had no right to become an Archer, with some gaze-weapon, and teacher. But he got it by deception and was cursed because of it. And then I opened the post in VKontakte, which came to me when I was thinking about this teacher, and I continued to tell the asuras about the true state of things about their big (before my arrival to him) teacher.

That day, September 19, 2017, in the group «Mahabharata» in VKontakte was published a post about Karna. I at that time was thinking about teacher of Shri Ram, I was wondering who he was, and I synced with him on some of my internal screen and pumped out all the books out of him, from his internal library. Apparently, in those books were his lifes files and knowledge, and me through the post in VKontakte was many told about him. Of course, in an allegorical form, but I have long been accustomed to extract from ordinary words and phrases hidden messages and this time took that post as a specific answer to me about the teacher of Shri Ram.

In particular, in this post was such:

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Throughout his life, Karna were pursued failures and curses, which led him to death. After he has left the ashram of Parashurama he some time aimlessly wandering. One day, a cow was chasing after him, and he killed her with a bow. The brahman, the owner of the cow, cursed Karna, saying that just as Karna killed a helpless animal, he would be killed when he was helpless.

Karna was killed by Arjuna on the 17th day of the battle. Before that, the rivals had been fighting on equal terms for a long time, but at some point, Karna broke down under the weight of curses. When the wheels of his chariot got bogged down in the wet ground and Arjuna aimed his bow at Karna, he realized that he could not remember the mantra that activated his weapons. Thus, the curse of Parashurama was realized. Karna asked Arjuna to wait until he had repaired the chariot, and Arjuna agreed. But Krishna demanded Arjuna immediately killed him. Krishna said that killing someone who has served the forces of evil all his life is not Adharma (sin). He listed to Arjuna all the sinful acts perpetrated by Karna against the Pandavas and Draupadi. He also noted that Arjuna would not be able to defeat Karna if he fully recovered his strength. Thus, Arjuna killed Karna, who was in a difficult situation, by doing the will of Krishna. Karna's funeral rite was performed by Krishna himself. Karna was the only character in the Mahabharata to have been awarded this honor.

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That is, teacher of Shri Ram in his entire life had gathered a lot of curses of many, many offended and deceived by him personalities. He had once killed a cow with his bow, and the owner of the cow was a brahmana, and he cursed him that just as he had killed a helpless animal, he would be killed when he was helpless. In these words, it was said, of course, not about just a cow.

It was about a good a woman who acted as a nursing, life-giving. After all, a cow is the one whose milk is fed to both calves and people. She gives her milk, her energy for someone's existence. And she, the cow, had the owner, i.e. the husband. After all, the owner of a woman is her husband. That is, from the story about the cow killed by Karna from the bow, it became clear to me that the teacher of Shri Ram somehow «killed» with his bow, his thought, some cow, a woman, a married one, who was everything to her husband. This woman was giving him life and prayed for his protection. He, her husband, lived thanks to her. And he was some kind of a worthy man, because the owner of the cow was a brahman.

But teacher of Shri Ram took advantage of some helpless condition of that woman, the wife of that brahman, and «killed her with his bow», that is, he used his asuric abilities and killed her love for her husband, that she stopped giving him life, broke all relations with him and left him, her husband. How did he do it? «He shot her with his bow», that is, with his mental message to her suppression, and all, she had to her husband, died, all her feelings for him, the desire to be with him and pray for his protection, it's all gone. For the husband of this woman, this «cow», which was everything for him, which was his life, her departure from his life was much grief. He somehow found out about the reason for this and cursed the one who did it, namely this teacher, that he would be killed when he was helpless.

This man loved his wife so much, his woman, a sacred creature to him, revered by him with all his soul, that after she left him he was so lost in the abyss of hopelessness that he cursed this teacher. And what was with that «cow» after such an impact on her, when all her feelings for her husband were gone, when she broke up with him and left him? What did she become after that? She was a Shrine to her husband, a sacred creature, but her consciousness was depressed, and she went to offer her charms to another. And for this her husband cursed this teacher.

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The end of the teacher of Shri Ram

Thus, the two different curses which the teacher had received were joined together: from the teacher who had been deceived by him, that in moments of mortal danger he would forget all his knowledge and it would not help him in any way, and from brahman the grief-stricken because of loss of his beloved wife, that he would be killed when he was helpless. And in that post it was said that at some point Karna broke under the weight of curses. And ditto the great teacher of the asuras broke under the weight of curses because he had a lot of curses and all his curses joined together and destroyed him.

And this moment has arrived, when I finished the Pitru Paksha and it's time to eliminate from the list of the asuras the teacher and Shepherd. In this post it was said that Krishna demanded that Arjuna kill Karna immediately. Krishna said that killing someone who has served the forces of evil all his life is not Adharma (sin). He listed to Arjuna all the sinful acts perpetrated by Karna against the Pandavas and Draupadi.

And all this day, on September 19, 2017, in my mind, memories were surfacing that Shri Ram and a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization did to me. These memories were very painful. But the most serious crime of this teacher, from my point of view, was that this teacher was installing in his disciples-asuras attitude to the woman as to a female animal, to the expendable material, soulless and not deserving even a spark of mercy and quarter.

In the pickup is instilled such an attitude to a woman that a woman — a female, female animal, for which the most important is the care of her offspring, the instinct of procreation, that a woman is a female, who looking where her offspring will be better arranged, safer, more comfortable, and this task is best performed under the protection of the alpha male, having a resource to ensure a comfortable, safe and secure existence. And you just have to show the female that you are such an alpha male, and then her instincts will turn on and she will do everything that you, like alpha male, fertilized this female.

Well, in order to hold a demonstration that you're an alpha male, to transmit it to the subconscious of the female, it is necessary to show your strength, one way or another. I mean, acting like you're her master. And then the female will recognize you as the leader and obey with great pleasure, as such is her essence. After all, all females are looking for your benefit... And the main thing — it's not to be reliable man, but to demonstrate that you are her owner, that she is nobody one at your feet.

And I remembered the first time I brought my children to the karate coach, the very first class, when Shri Ram had already plugged unto me through him and had already began his attack. The coach was standing in the doorway; he had a big stick in his hands, which he does not part with during classes. He said something to the children and looked me in the eye. And he with all the strength sharply banged by that stick on door, that I was very scared and with a loud cry sprang for the door.

I remembered that, I thought then Shri Ram was showing me who the main is, when the karate coach, looking me in the eye, said something to the kids and hit the door with a stick. He kind of said, «I'm in charge here, listen to me! And follow all my commands!» And he gave me the order to obey him and do whatever what he will tell me to do.

At the same time, we discussed with the karate coach in e-mail proofreading of texts of his website, and he wrote to me there: «Thank you for your concern, and, perhaps, you are right, mistakes are not desirable. If your professional opinion suggests, then don't think it's a work is to do it». It seems to be a completely innocent letter about the texts of his site, but in these words Shri Ram told me in allegorical language the following — that he thanks me for my concern and that to do it.

That is, he already deliberately prescribed me a concern, that is, already decided to press down all the buttons in my women's centers to cause this concern. He decided to cause sexual longing at me to force me masturbate and they would fuck me the whole crowd at the energy level, implementing their perverted fantasies, enjoying a sense of superiority that another one female fell under them and does everything they want. And they would pump out my female energy and my piety. All this he told me in innocent words «thank you for your concern».

He thanked me in advance that I would have this anxiety caused and I would submit to it. As they write: «Thank you in advance», when you are sure that everything will be done. And in the words «don't think it's a work is to do it» he gave me a very clear and direct order, which does not allow any objections that it should be done, because it was written specifically: «to do it». Imperative command. Yes, first part of the sentence was «don't think it's a work», but it did not play any role, since the main words were «to do it», that is, «I order: to do it, and you will do it without fail».

All this I had been remembering all that day, it was like how as Krishna was listing to Arjuna all the sinful acts that Karna had perpetrated against the Pandavas and Draupadi, so that Arjuna would have no doubts. I thought about all that and how low it was to put a woman on that level in their attitude towards her when to her was pointed to her miserable position at the feet of her master, the alpha male.

And I thought that teacher has such an attitude towards women, and that he was inculcating such an attitude his disciples, one of whom is my eternal husband, my Shri Ram. And this teacher inculcated in my eternal husband the attitude towards me, his eternal wife, his Shakti, his woman, his second half, as a female animal, looking for a better male, to well arrange her brood, in a warm place. Yes, for this one it should be removed that teacher, I decided, and proceeded with decisive action.

When it was time to wash the dishes in the evening, I thought that in a post at VKontakte Krishna had demanded that Arjuna kill Karna immediately. Krishna said that killing someone who has served the forces of evil all his life is not Adharma (sin). He listed to Arjuna all the sinful acts perpetrated by Karna against the Pandavas and Draupadi. I thought that teacher of Shri Ram had been serving the forces of evil, the asuras, all his life, teaching them to lower women's nature, to tear it down and turn women into their weak-willed toys, and I must in some way to have done away with him.

I looked at the mountain of dirty dishes and thought I was washing those dishes because of that teacher. Yes, I know that we are to blame for the circumstances of our live, this is our karma, the consequences of our actions and we should not blame anyone for this. But I had to start somehow operation on elimination of teacher of Shri Ram, and I thought that it is good for this purpose somehow even to fan my indignation to the limit, to increase my hatred for washing dishes. I thought that to achieve the goal any means are good, and I can to make use of any reason, even of absolutely ridiculous occasion, the main thing that it worked. And I decided to use this mountain of dirty dishes in my kitchen sink in my own interests.

I began to think, intentionally, quite clearly deciding that it is necessary to fan this indignation to the limit and dirty dishes here will be very helpful because I hate washing dishes, but because of teacher of Shri Ram I wash dishes. He instilled my Shri Ram these settings that a woman is not a person, but only a female animal, the expendable material. He instilled my Shri Ram that to make a woman happy in very dubious ways, which really can only plunge her into the abyss of hopelessness, derogatory thoughts about herself, that they dared to think, that it might make her happy. I remembered how Shri Ram activated the force methods at me at the beginning of our invisible interaction with him. I remembered that he, my other half, who has to protect and cherish me, sent his companions from his asuric organization upon me on a subtle energy plane, forcing me to start having sex with them all. And he pressed me by all his asuric abilities and powers to bring me to my knees in front of all of them. He did manipulations with my consciousness, pressed some buttons in my energy structure to activate at me estrus mode, like a female dog during fertilization, causing in my body a high intensity sexual arousal, because of which, as he believed, any woman will necessarily start having sex with any man or at least masturbate. Then Shri Ram integrated into overall structure of our intimate interaction another man at the energy level, and then he was going to connect me with some gorgeous man instead of himself in physical reality.

I was thinking about that time, and indignation, resentment, shame, sad emotions were rising in me, and I decided route these emotions to have done away with this teacher. I have turned on Narasimha Maha Mantra, «ugram viram maha-vishnum jvalantam sarvato mukham nrisimham bhishanam bhadram mrityur mrityum namamy aham». I thought there need Nrisimhadev, because He is the death of death, He can kill anyone.

And I suddenly realized that I'm inside this teacher. I sing this Narasimha Maha Mantra, I standing inside the teacher and suddenly I see what's inside him appeared Nrisimhadev, as a Deity of Nrisimhadev. He was small, Nrisimhadev sat on His throne, and in the form of this Deity sitting on His throne He appeared inside this teacher and began to fly throughout the space inside teacher. Nrisimhadev was small, the teacher was big, and I spread my consciousness to the entire space of the teacher. I kind of was inside him, and at the same time, I was kind of spread all over him. I sing this mantra, wash the dishes and by some inner sight see Nrisimhadev along with this throne whirl, whirling rushes inside teacher, by some chaotic spirals, and I mentally say: «Kill him, kill him».

Then I found myself in front of the Deity of Nrisimhadev, to whom I always came in meditation, when Shri Ram invisibly appeared and plugged unto me at the energy level. I remembered how I was flying to Deity of Nrisimhadev, was merging with Him, how I was sitting on His lap, pressing myself to His chest, how He was hugging me with His hand, comforting me, how I was complaining to Him, crying to Him like to my husband, and He was calming me. And I suddenly saw myself standing, angry and demanding before this Deity.

I stood in front of Nrisimhadev with my hands folded in Namaste and began to tell Him: «Kill, kill»... and then «I want, want»... Was an interesting situation. I in the mind's eye was standing in front of a large Nrisimhadev Deity and at the same time some I my inner gaze saw that little Nrisimhadev Deity on a throne flies, spinning, inside the teacher with lightning speed like a whirlwind. What was He doing there, I didn't know but I thought that Nrisimhadev will cleanse all at the teacher and will do everything right.

But I personally appealed the Nrisimhadev, paying His attention to the teacher, at the same time and asking, and demanding, and insisting, like a whimsical wife requires her husband to fulfill her wish: «Kill him... kill him... kill him... I want it... I want... I want... I want»... The teacher did a lot of ugly, vile, he taught my Shri Ram to invade the personal space of a woman, against her will, and break her feminine nature, he instilled in him the attitude to woman as to a female (к женщине как к самке, к особи женского пола), as if a woman is not a person, but only a female animal, the expendable material, and Krishna said to kill this teacher.

And from Nrisimhadev suddenly went bright stream of fire that I routed at that teacher. And I suddenly saw this teacher floating inside his body, as in weightlessness, somewhere at the level between the Anahata and Manipura, and I began to try to raise him higher. And then after a short time I saw him standing in front of me on his knees with his hands folded and asking to accept him. I looked at him, and I wanted to turn on another mantra (all this time I was washing dishes in my kitchen and listening to mantras).

I turned on the mantra «Tumi bhaja re mana» performed by Manish Vyas.

tumi bhaja re mana tumi japa re mana

om shri ram jaya ram japa re mana.

«Oh, mind, always worship (bhaja) and chant (japa) the name of God! „O Sri Rama! Glory to Sri Rama!“ — my mind sings».

This mantra is so sad, I always want to cry during it. And during this mantra I embraced the teacher kneeling in front of me, and I was immersed in the feeling of longing described in Lord Chaitanya's «Sri Shikshashtakam»: «O my Lord, when will my eyes be decorated with tears of love flowing constantly when I chant Your holy name? When will my voice choke up, and when will the hairs of my body stand on end at the recitation of Your name? O Govinda! Every moment of separation from me for me, for more than twelve years. Tears are pouring from my eyes, currents of rain, and without you the whole world seems empty to me».

I hugged this teacher, and tears actually began rain from my eyes, we were crying together, hugging, and were flying together, as if merged together, as one, immersed in this feeling of piercing universal wistfulness to Krishna. I cried to this teacher, endowing him this feeling, and he felt it all with me. I told him that I love him. I really loved him at that time, standing in my kitchen in front of a mountain of dirty dishes. I loved him unearthly, immense love, and suddenly he stretched out his hands to me, on my internal screen, and began to repeat the same: «I love you, I love you…»

And then from somewhere up above appeared a whirlwind, as some purple-blue-purple infinite vortex, standing over us like a trumpet, borne upwards whirling spiral and dragging you off into the distance. I told that teacher not to be afraid that he would be met there, that I would pray for him. I said to Krishna, «Please, Krishna, accept him, accept him». I didn't do anything with him the whole time. I was just singing Narasimha Maha Mantra, prayed to Nrisimhadev, Nrisimhadev did it for me, I even not touched him, to this teacher.

As in the post in the group «Mahabharata» in VKontakte was written about Karna, that the funeral rite of Karna was made by Krishna and that Karna was the only hero of Mahabharata, awarded this honor. The same thing happened to this teacher. I did not do anything with him myself, everything was done by Nrisimhadev, and this teacher was the only one in my Mahabharata who was so honored. And then I just turned on this mantra:

tumi bhaja re mana tumi japa re mana

om shri ram jaya ram japa re mono.

«Oh, mind, always worship (bhaja) and chant (japa) the name of God! „O Sri Rama! Glory to Sri Rama!“ — my mind sings».

I hugged him, I loved this teacher so much and so immensely, and he loved me, and I coupled this teacher to this love, to a piercing longing for Krishna.

And when I turned to Krishna to receive this teacher, this funnel-shaped vortex itself pulled him into itself, and he flew away there. He was rushing there, holding out his hands to me, crying and kept saying to me: «I love you, I love you»... Then I looked back at the empty body left from him, and I thought that Krishna told me to release the Shepherd (The Shepherd, I do not love you) and I immediately took him up.

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Gulf Stream for Shepherd

Teacher of Shri Ram flew away into that funnel-shaped vortex, and I turned to what was left of him, and I thought it was now the Shepherd's turn. I first heard about him before the liberation of the so-called Pandavas on Radhashtami, August 29, 2017 when was 11th series of the vedic tv series «Mahakali» about asur Bhandasura. He had no body of physical elements and therefore could not be killed, and on August 30 in the cartoon «Gravity Falls» I heard about some monster who did not have a physical body and who commanded the minds of people.

And then I thought that the next character in my Mahabharata would be this bodiless asur, who commands the minds of other people. Then on my table in front of me fell figure of the king from «Kinder Surprise», «Bremen town musicians», as if saying to me: «I love you»... I looked at him and said: «The Shepherd, I do not love you», remembering «Ruslan and Lyudmila» of Pushkin. On September 3, standing high in space above him, I as a huge cobra sucked him into me. I turned inside out, turned into a jellyfish and plunged him into myself.

He dissolved into me like into jellyfish, and for days we were fused together. He actively listened to lectures of Srila Prabhupada, Bhakti Vikasha Swami, my Gurudeva, Indradyumna Swami, «Srimad-Bhagavatam» and decided to dedicate the spread of this knowledge all his future lives which he could has if someone helped him in this. On September 7, we made a contract with this Shepherd that he would help me to return to Krishna if I would help him. I then remembered that just Pitru Paksha started, two weeks in September, days of remembrance of ancestrys, when living people can help those already left the body.

That year, Pitru Paksha went from 5 to 19 September, and I decided that the remaining time of Pitru Paksha I will chant the circle of Hare Krishna mantra, one shloka of «Bhagavad Gita as it is» of Srila Prabhupada, I will observe Ekadashi and give to Shepherd the benefit of its observance and for him I will go to Sunday programs of Hare Krishna and to harinama. And I have done all this. And on harinama I sang for him, and on the program before the Deities stood and asked for him, and observed Ekadashi for him.

It was September 16 2017, Indira Ekadashi that absolves ancestors from sins of past lives and rescues them from the abode of the God of death Yamaraja. About this Ekadashi there is a story that king Indrasena observed this fast to help his father, who was in hell because of his past sinful actions. The benefit gained by this king through the observance of this Ekadashi was received by his father, who left hell and found a completely spiritual body. And on September 16 I fasted on this Ekadashi, and on the morning of 17 September passed all the merits for it to Shepherd.

All these days, from September 3, he was sitting dissolved in me as in a jellyfish, and when I gave him all the merits that I earned by observing this fast on Indira Ekadashi, he seemed to rise high in the sky, on top of him opened a wide orifice, and there was a constant Golden Stream. On September 13, there was session with pillow, in which the Shepherd had the opportunity to touch through me with his second half, Panchali, with whom he will be together during all their future lives that remained at them in the material world before going into the spiritual world. On September 16, just on Indira Ekadashi, some asuras carried out two manipulations of my consciousness that I left Shri Ram and ceased to be engaged in striking out asuras. Then I thought that there was a great teacher who taught them all this and who had to answer for it, and I decided that the next one in my Mahabharata would be this teacher and that I would put the Shepherd in the empty body of the teacher, and then I would knock him out and send him to normal future lives. For more than two weeks, there was a Shepherd in me, dissolved like in a jellyfish.

And here is 19 September, the end of the Pitru Paksha. The teacher flew away into that funnel-shaped vortex above, his body was empty, I looked back at it and thought it was now the Shepherd's turn. It's time for him to reunite with his Panchali and proceeds to fulfill that mission that he chose for himself. He chose to become the great a sankirtaner, that is a hero who doesn't hesitate making sacrifices in order to others can join the spiritual family of Krishna and return into spiritual world. He will spread Krishna consciousness among the powerful around the world. He will be very educated, very intelligent, and very erudite. He will have such charisma, such influence on people, such charm, you can say, magic. But this is not magic really, but his quality from his past disembodied existence, his ability to pasture people's minds, his ability that will pass with him into his future normal existence as a devotee of Krishna.

I looked at the empty shell of the teacher and thought that something else can be pushed into his body. I turned on the Narasimha Maha Mantra again, remembered that I am such a jellyfish and that this Shepherd was dissolved in me, and I, imagining myself as this jellyfish with the Shepherd dissolved in me, got close to the body of this teacher and was there at the very bottom. I thought I'd put a Shepherd in this body.

I looked at this body, and there at the bottom, where is Muladhara chakra, something began tamped down. It was not clear to me what was happening there, but I looked there from top to bottom and saw that there were active changes. And there formed a solid, durable, dense, opaque, brown base that you could stand and lean on. And then I look: the bottom is, and from this bottom from the bottom up began to grow strong, dense opaque walls.

And I suddenly look, as if I'm not in this body anymore, but on the outside, looking at body of that teacher who flew away into that funnel-shaped vortex, and see the Shepherd's eyes inside body, like a Shepherd looking out of that body at me. It's like I came out of there, and he stayed there and looked at me from there. Then I saw his silhouette inside the tube of body of the teacher.

Before that, I saw only his eyes, and then suddenly clearly appeared his silhouette, and this silhouette was all burning, was all of the fire, and after that outside of this burning silhouette formed a silhouette of something like blue water, and then these two in each other silhouette — from the fire and from the water — covered the outside air bubbles. The result was a triple shell of different elements. I remembered the 12th series of «Mahakali», where Mahakali gave Bhandasura a body of five elements, and then burned it to the ground. And the transformation of the Shepherd's silhouette was like giving him these material elements.

After that, I'm out of dirty plates, and I went for my daughter at karate class. I felt sorry for Krishna, because He feels everything, including the suffering of this Shepherd, who was willing to accept any punishment, just to get rid of his incorporeal existence. I wanted to release the Shepherd as soon as possible in order to free Krishna from these sensations, the co-sensations with the Shepherd, because Shepherd had such a miserable existence, without a body, in the minds of other people…

I wanted to help Krishna so that this Shepherd would not feel this hopelessness, such a depressing situation in that he was and that Krishna felt. I also wanted to help Panchali, who is Shepherd`s significant other, who is waiting for him somewhere, who, in order to reunite with him, unknown how was deserving it, who has the right to be reunited with him, especially since he will be a great devotee of Krishna.

And it was also necessary to do something with the Shepherd, because the teacher left his body, and then after a while in teacher`s body there was a Shepherd. Usually this is called clinical death, when a person seems to have died, but then suddenly came to life. But in this case revived at all not the owner of this body, the teacher, and absolutely other person — the Shepherd. The Shepherd was not even reborn, since this body never belonged to him, he found himself in it for a very short time after the owner of this body, the teacher, left this body. This body for the Shepherd played the role of a kind of hotel, in which he settled for half a day, and then left these apartments to fly to his future life, already into his own body, in his own house, and not in the hotel, that is, in someone else's body. I thought I should quickly to send him; all of a sudden he'll like this body.

When I came to my daughter's lesson in karate, I, as always, went into the gym and sat down there on horse, on my, so to speak, the throne. This is the vaulting horse, sport equipment. And then the karate coach stopped training for a minute, although usually never paid attention to anyone and parents freely came, sat down and watched as the children are train. I soundlessly entered the gym, quietly sat down; on everything it took about 10 seconds, no one distracted from classes. But he turned to me and said: «Mother Sveta, you killed my 10 minutes».

I immediately understood what it meant: «Mother Sveta». He never did not appeal to me so, and then «mother Sveta». My name is Svetlana. Abbreviated form is Sveta. But he had never before addressed me as to Sveta. And all the more as to mother Sveta. And it was like a signal to me that I immediately noticed. I realized that through him communicating with my Shri Ram and I thought: what is mom? what light is that? Because in Russian «mother Sveta» («мама Света») can be understood as «mother of light». What is that light? This is the forces of light. Mother Sveta = mom of forces of light. And «You killed my 10 minutes». I thought about the teacher of Shri Ram: «Yes, indeed, I killed him just now». What do the words «10 minutes» mean? It`s his teacher, because the number 10 in numerology is the number of leadership. 10 — a leader — a teacher.

Turns out he said, «You killed my teacher». That is, «You are so mom of forces of light, managed to do it, how did you do it at all? You killed such a great teacher». I said, «Well», kind of showing him that I realized that he confirmed that it really happened. I did Namaste, I am sorry, and I turned on in the headphones kirtan Hare Krishna performed by Sri Prahlada.

The karate class continued, I was sitting on that horse, listening to the kirtan with my eyes closed, and I saw that at the Shepherd in body of the teacher began some transformations. I tried very hard to knock him out of the body, a lot of things I was doing with him, but nothing helped, and then I began to beg Krishna for help. And then I activated at the bottom of a powerful turbocharging and began to raise the Shepherd up.

At some point I saw how at the very top of his head opened the same 1000-petalled lotus, pale pink, at a full panorama. Lotus was very wide, went beyond the head and stood so, very beautiful. And I even soak up in it for a while.

Then I stood up on top and began to drag the Shepherd from the bottom up, but nothing worked, and then I myself became a solid pipe, which stood in the body of a teacher. And I being a rigid tube entered a kind of tunnel, that suddenly appeared at the top, and as would docked together a body of teachers with a hole of swirl on the top. I spread myself along the teacher's body like a big long tunnel from the bottom of the teacher's body up to the top and began to pull up the Shepherd upward through me as through that pipe.

Sometimes it is necessary to thrust the wire inside the soft textile, but it is impossible the wire even push inside the hole due to the fact that the textile is not rigid. In this case, through the hole in the soft textile, a rigid tube is pushed, and then the wire is passed inside it. And thus it turns out to thread the wire even in a soft cloth. And I was pulling that Shepherd up through me like that. There opened a wide rapid bright blue stream, like a warm Gulf Stream. I was trying to push out the Shepherd into that Gulf Stream. I tried for a long time, and then he went there.

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