Ram took a vow to our advantage

I listened to Yaroslav Klimanov's song «Your love» and thought that it was about me. I am the love that came to Shri Ram in the smoke, in the fire, in the blood that he did not recognize. It's a pity he didn't recognize me. But good that he didn't recognize me. Now he knows himself, what he is.

I thought: that was my plan? Come to him in smoke, in fire, in blood, like rain and snow, like hurricane wind? What would he do to me that much? In such a short time and so many bad things? And to whom? who's his soul mate, his real couple, his Shakti? Did he do this to his Shakti? And it was made by him because that was my plan? Why was my plan like this? Why did I come to him like this and not as a beautiful woman with whom he would feel like a man and that he would want to protect from everything and everyone? Why did I have to show him what he really was? For what? Really to to get away from him at all? Come and just say that I'm leaving because I'm tired of being here in the material world, because even my real man can do this to me? My Tiramisu, lift me to heaven. And what can anyone do with me who is nobody to me?

Maybe I came to him that's the way to show him why I don't want to be in the material world and why I want to go into the spiritual world? That I many lives without him destroyed vile creatures, including like him, and I don't want because of them to tear my heart anymore? My Gurudev's right. In the material world happen such situations. This is no place for a gentleman. No gentleman here can always keep his word as a gentleman. At any moment something can happen that he will forget about this word and will run for the coveted ghostly carrot, hanging in front of his nose and beckoning him to the mirages. Prabhu Sasha was right: I shouldn't have done this. No need to look back like Orpheus on Eurydice, we must go forward.

So many times during our interaction with Shri Ram, I had an irresistible desire to break up with him completely, to forget him as a terrible dream, to erase him at all, so that he would not exist, and every time I had signs to be with him. I thought I was a masochist. This is wrong. Nobody does that. The most important question of a woman, whether she needs this man, is “what do you have from him?”. I — nothing, besides humiliation, insults, resentment, feeling below the straw lying on the street. And I have to keep being with him, no matter what?! How many times are reminded me about it that I have to be with this Shri Ram no matter what.

And for this, even a flower blossomed on a newly planted stick under my window, when the snow was already lying and the flowers did not bloom. Then I had signs everywhere to be with him. I rejected them away because I didn't want to be with him at all, so much pain I was getting from him. And then I told Krishna that I did not believe him and did not want to be with Shri Ram. And the flower bloomed in the snow right after I told Krishna that I would only believe the super cool sign. And how can I be now, after I found out that Shri Ram done this to me?

I looked at this list of bad that Shri Ram did to me in a very short time, and I thought that no self-respecting person would be left where he would be made even part of this list. I guess I don't respect myself. Probably I'm not worthy of respect. I just think I'm good, but in fact, it's just the opposite. After I found out that Shri Ram in that ill-fated summer in our sexual interaction through distance connected lot of not my men, I went into a deep depression.

I remembered that gesture of my Gurudev in that lecture when he offered me for Shri Ram, and I thought that I could not just throw it, I have no such right. That realization made me feel worse. Because being with someone like that is completely stupid. I thought: it's good that all this time our interaction was not bodies, but at a distance. He had the opportunity not be shy and behave as wanted, without pretending to be decent before standing in front of him woman, that he's such a good one. Here, when interacting at a distance, he was sure that no one sees what he was doing, that I'm a stupid, trusting fool and I can easily be fooled, and I do not notice anything. And so it is.

But Krishna revealed to me what was hidden from my eyes. And there's so much unsightly... If we met as ordinary people, I would not know what he is and what he does with people. And here I was substitute oneself, showed him that I do not see those layers of interaction, and his hands were untied, he not hesitated and do what he wanted. How many bad things he did at that time! How can believe such a person? And if he allows this when interacting with a woman, even if at a distance, on the energy areas, how can it change? Nature can't be fooled. If want it this, will it pass by itself? Well, of course, when he is reformatted, then it's possible. But not on the procedure, but on pure strength of will, decision, and determination is possible? But I had so many signs to continue to be with him.

When I told in the 223^rd episode of my novel about my suffering and my unwillingness to be with him, I opened the screenshots from «Devon Ke Dev Mahadev», where Shiva told Chandradev, and through this and Shri Ram himself, that his crime is unforgivable. Shiva himself said that what Shri Ram did was a crime. And it's unforgivable. Shiva said that Shri Ram married me himself, of his own free will, no one forced him to tell me «be my wife, become my wife». Shiva said that Shri Ram should give me the status of his wife. Shiva told him that he had failed in his duty and that it was a crime and that he should be punished for it. And when I commented on the screenshots from this story, it came to me that the fact that Shri Ram accepted my Gurudev's offer is a punishment for him.

I thought that if it is a punishment for him, it is good, I will try to provide him with full punishment and I have no right to refuse it as punishment to him is already written out and it I. And now I must continue to be with him to that he received his punishment. my mood has improved significantly. I thought I could give him that punishment. I don't want to be with him, but being with him as punishment for him is a good idea. Shri Ram saw my gloating and wanted to do correct it. That's why he came to ask me for forgiveness through the words of my son. I then did not answer him and began to remember all the bad things that he did to me during this time and for which he wants to get forgiveness. Bad it turned out very many.

At this time came the words from the book about Artemis Fowl, I thought about them and considered this situation from their position. «Maybe you made the wrong decision. Maybe I too could have taken the wrong decision. We are from different worlds and can never trust each other completely. Let's live on, leave the past behind where it belongs». «He nodded. He didn't have to count on the best, he got more than he deserved».

I thought Shri Ram had made so many wrong decisions. And I've been able to make the wrong decision so many times. I might not would have saved him when all his business was going to hell, and he could have been a homeless beggar and then gone to his next life. I could walk away from him when he had his Lona, and then she would erase him altogether. I could have chosen that man from my past lives when Shri Ram, enjoying with Lona, threw me on the expanses of The universe toward the other. I could do made so many wrong choices. But every time I stayed with him. Probably, it is a cliché in my subconscious, I guess I'm a hidden masochist, because I attract such men and such an attitude to myself and I make a choice in their favor.

We are from different worlds and can never trust each other completely. Shri Ram is Asur. He used to feel his power over the people, who have no idea that this a decent-looking, very nice, such a cultural, educated person can do such monstrous things, on the internal, energy areas, looking very much even highly spiritual. These are Asuras. Who am I? I'm the destroyer of vile creatures, including the Asuras. We're enemies. And he's the best enemy to me, and I'm the best enemy to him. We can't trust each other. He knows how to do all sorts of tricks on the internal, energy areas, which I can not see here, and I know how to create a situation to confront which he can not. How can we trust each other?

«Let's continue to live, let's leave the past in the past, where it should be». And how can you go on, leaving the past in the past, knowing that there was so much bad? As they say, spoons were found, the Deposit remained. The sediment is still there. How can you continue to be with him, knowing that he is such, even if externally and looks very nice, inspiring full confidence and desire to open up? How can you open up, knowing that he can spit in this open flower at any moment? Flower is unlikely to blossom, knowing that you grow in that garden, where the flowers though, and I love it, but mercilessly rip.

«He nodded. He didn't have to count on the best, he got more than he deserved». Shri Ram has been shown that he can't expect the best, it won't for him, and I will be his punishment. How to be together, having such an attitude and awareness? And if this the best appear, then he immediately gonna run there? Shri Ram was very much disliked the idea that I is his punishment. He something after all wanted to enjoy.

And I also did not think that my man like this. Not to mention, he can do so many nasty things to me. Just one thing that he can such do to someone is closes the floodgates between us. And need to be with him. But Shri Ram asked for forgiveness. Through someone on the street, he told me he was bad, but he beats those that are much worse than him. What now? I also beat those who are bad and who are much worse than those bad. But eradication people who are really, really bad doesn't give you the right to treat women like that.

I remembered Yaroslav Klimanov's song about «Bhagavad-Gita» and thought that this song about me and Shri Ram, that this Bhagavad-Gita, this song of God is me.

Shri Ram told me that I and his choice and his fate and need to somehow accept this fate and be together, forgiving each other. He was worried that instead of enjoying his punishment is waiting for him, but in the screenshot with «Mahabharata» in the 227^th series of my novel it was said that this is not a punishment, but mercy. He was given such a chance! His soul mate was going to leave the material world, but came to him to say about it and show that he was not alone all this time, that even in such a situation he was not abandoned, and gave him a chance, gave him a choice, gave him the main role, where he will decide which way to go. He already got more than he deserved. He didn't have to count on the best.

All this time, I found out about the not my men, I was really depressed. I wanted to kill Shri Ram so badly... I don't know how I held on. I remembered my Gurudev, his gesture of good will to Shri Ram and how Krishna said to give Shri Ram a chance. I thought that I had no right to act self-willed. And it was very hard for me because I thought that Shri Ram had no right to live because has no right to do so. I thought that by saying no to a behavior that doesn't honor you, you serve everyone, because there will never be a love in supporting someone to manifest itself in such a limited version of yourself. If you don't say no to something that doesn't honor you, then you support his manifestation in such a limited version of yourself. This Shri Ram so long was in such a limited version of himself, he had no respect for the woman as a person, as a living being, because there I was not alone, us were many.

I wanted to kill him so much, but Krishna said that it was against Dharma because Shri Ram is my eternal husband. And it was very difficult for me to restrain myself, because I believed that he had no right to exist. I was thinking about how I destroyed those forty strongest Asuras, I 40 times was born in asuric worlds. And I understood myself that I could not then behave otherwise. And surprisingly: in the case of Shri Ram, I was able to hold back. Although it was non-contact, through distance, still it was impossible to restrain, and there, in those forty incarnations, everything was on the physical plane. I felt it so deeply, like it was all real.

I thought the Dharma of a man was to protect a woman. What is the meaning of a man's life if he does not fulfill his mission to protect a woman, if he treats a woman as a sheep on the slaughter, as a piece of meat? In the pickup correctly said that the woman is targeted to fulfill the instinct of procreation. And if she sees a suitable male, so to speak, an alpha male, with whom she can fulfill her purpose — procreation — in the best way, then she submits to him. And the pickup trucks use this, all sorts of tricks in the pickup truck came up with how to make it so as to demonstrate, to give the command to the subconscious of the female individual, so that she took this female, male individual, for the alpha male, with whom she can successfully fulfill her mission female — to extend the genus, civilization.

And pickup trucks use it — the fact that a woman is targeted for the continuation of the genus. Pickup trucks use this, female, in order to simply use her and throw out, without taking responsibility. And even in the pickup aerobatics, not to spend a penny on her at all. What if she will feed you, it will be a good thing. But to you are desirable not to spend on it. Although sometimes the end justifies the means and you can take someone for a long siege, but still with the thought that you just use it, and do not take responsibility for it for your whole life. But in this case, a man does not fulfill his purpose, because his Dharma is in the protection of a woman, because a woman is aimed, set up for the continuation of the genus. And so that she can do it in the best way, a man has to take full responsibility for a woman, with all seriousness.

And pickup correctly says that the woman works on instincts — on the instinct of procreation. This is by nature. But a man has to protect a woman, because a woman prolongs the family. Because who will she give life to, who will she send in life if used? If she does not feel full care of herself and if this care is really not present and is not expected. Who will she give life to? Who, then, will be to go around? Pickupers are not right. They contribute to the General degradation. And as said Sergey Vladimirovich Serebryakov, if the kettle is not boiling, it is useless. If a man does not protect a woman, that he completely useless. He's not needed. He's a worthless, a burden on the earth. He breathes foreign air, because he does not fulfill his mission, the mission of protecting women.

And I thought this Shri Ram the same. He only wants to enjoy. And I wanted so much to forget him forever, to close this page with him and go on, but I was reassured by my own words in one letter at the very beginning of our interaction with Shri Ram. Then I wrote to someone, but in fact it was my own letter from the past to myself in the future, that this will not happen again. I kind of sent these words to myself before I was born in this body: «When you are incarnated there and you live to see this time, that this series of events will begin to unfold, I will send you this letter. You will write to someone, and then you will understand that in these words to itself gave explanations that more such won't be repeated that you suffer somehow». And it said: “I'll manage”. That is, there I myself as if reassured that this will never happen again and that I will cope with it, I have something provided there. In advance plan so drawn up, that I can endure this intensity passions.

I remembered how in the very first series of my novel there was a screenshot from «Mahabharata», where Krishna said: «Give him a chance». Then I told that when I was between lives, I saw that Srila Prabhupada came to Earth and there is a real opportunity to get out of the material world into the spiritual world. I have many lives was an inspector of the Universe Patrol, I give for creepy beasts face through their death. Those creatures who have no face, I given them a face, a normal embodiment, respectively, destroying them, and they are born in good conditions, as normal living beings. I, many lives doing all this, looked at all sorts of things and, seeing that Srila Prabhupada gave a real chance to return to the spiritual world, decided to leave this service and fall into the spiritual world, completely out of this material world forever. Krishna said give this Shri Ram chance, because he is my eternal couple, because even if we are with him and were not together, I somehow invisibly it is supported, helping him grow in his asuric career and protecting from a fall in hell.

Krishna told me that the one who is leaving can go, but necessary say one last good word to the one from whom you have decided to leave. And then in the first series of my novel Krishna in the screenshots showed that if Shri Ram does not take this chance, then he will never see me at all, Krishna will completely break our connection with Shri Ram, although we are with him and the eternal couple. Because Krishna is God, he can do anything. And even though I wanted to completely close this epic with Shri Ram, I remembered that it would not happen again, the chance is given once and it is necessary to give this chance, no matter what it costs me. And in those first series of my novel, when I said that poor Shri Ram, how without me he will be in the material world, came out a screenshot of Arjuna with his eyes closed, that is, in any way.

And I thought: but how, he's my eternal couple, he has to protect me. The Dharma of a man is to protect a woman. Instead of protecting me, he did me so much wrong. How many bad things he did to me in such a short time! I was lucky I inspector of the Universe Patrol and I have some kind of immunity. How many sinful reactions has he earned that he to his eternal wife everything so many bad things was done! But I it all this time defending you, I was fulfil Ekadashi and the benefit of their gave him. Apparently on those higher areas I was knew what he was doing.

It is here when you live, and you do not know what is really happening, you see only this outer shell, and what is happening on the internal, energy areas, you do not know. And I did not know that he did all this with me, it was opened later, but he earned so many sinful reactions, I see, I have these Ekadashi with the transfer of the benefits from them to him, so that he did not go to hell for what he did to me. And to how many other women did he do all sorts of nasty things? I thought: how then should I be? I want to kill him because he has no right to live, but Krishna says not to do it, it is against the Dharma. I held on with all my might not to kill him. To me it was given with great difficulty.

All this time I was sitting alone, and even there is no one to say this. To whom can say this? And then I feel like came someone, a native person, a parent with those from my past lives. And I'm like crying to them. Well, I think at least to someone I can cry it out my grief, how bitter and lonely and hurt. I started crying to them about how Shri Ram had hurt me. And then I felt the energy of some man who was my husband when I was the daughter of the one who came to me now. I felt his energy as if it's some sort of image. And I allowed me to cry that he hurt me as well. I cried bitterly and wept, feeling the invisible presence of someone native from there.

I kept saying and saying, “He hurt me so much, he hurt me so much”... And I thought they wanted to protect me somehow. I thought that one of those parents in past lives of mine living here now, and somehow it happened, and they recognized me and they cared about me, and I could even cry to them. And then I thought that they told Shri Ram that I was not a girl without family, and that I am a worthy girl who belonged to a noble Royal family.

Those who came to me must have told Shri Ram that he had no right to do this to me, that I was their daughter and belonged to a noble Royal family. I belonged to a noble Royal family there, and this noble Royal family still exists among the Asuras. And I belong to this family. But I was there not only to this Royal family belong to, since I'm forty times the strongest Asura destroyed. In different birth, perhaps, was born. But someone recognized me there. And it is seen that Shri Ram was told that he had no right to humiliate me so, because I belong to their noble Royal family. And somehow I felt so good, so easily, as if I was sitting and some hand on top of me protects, as if saying: «Do not be afraid, I'm with you».

I felt that this family was protecting me. Because I'm not what they thought. They thought I had dishonored them. No. Even if I was born to destroy the most powerful Asura, but he made his choice. He made me a victim. If he had behaved normally, everything would have been fine, I would have been faithful to him all my life, I would have been a chaste, loving wife. In no case would anything bad happen to him. I would have defended him, and he would have become even stronger, more powerful, despite the fact that I was born to destroy him. But he himself, with his hands, destroyed everything, including himself. And those my parents saw that it really was, and that this Shri Ram did the same thing to me, albeit non-contact, through distance, and they recognize for one's own me and took under their protection.

And just then I actually read those words from the book about Artemis Fowl: «Maybe you made the wrong decision. Maybe I could have made the same decision. We are from different worlds and can never trust each other completely. Let's will continue to live, leave the past behind where his place». And then, «He nodded. The best was not expected, he got more than he deserved». I thought about these words and felt protected, seemed to tell me: «Shri Ram, she is ours. We recognized her. We won't let you hurt her». I felt the protection of this kind, although Asuras, but guard the honor.

I thought that Shri Ram and I were from different worlds and we could never trust each other completely. They, Asuras, look very intelligently. They're very pretty, so charming, externally trustworthy. If Shri Ram comes to me, I'll forget he did this to me. And what he did to other women. And when I look into his honest, such honest eyes, I will not even think that he is capable of such a thing that even the thought of such a thing can come to his mind. I thought: how deceptive can be appearance and how people are fond of it. If he represents, demonstrates one thing, but actually makes there another.

Me neither. Who am I? I'm a little mouse, but and in fact, who am I? How many of these Asuras did I kill? Some eerie creatures in some worlds. Who am I? And I thought: what if we are with him from different worlds and we are encrypted? How can you be together, such two different personalities, both of which are encrypted, because they perform some kind of business that others should not see? I remembered that the word as a gentleman of Shri Ram, which he many times broke. And how can you trust, if he said, “Trust me. This is my hand”, and he did something nasty on me, all summer connected to me energetically strangers men, taking advantage of my trust. And how his attractive appearance, absolutely deceptive, misleading? If he comes with such a look as the Asuras, and you would not think that he is capable of such a thing at all. How to be here?

Some time after some parent came to me from those past lives and I was thinking about the words «Let's live, let's leave the past in the past, where it should be», I wanted to see what will be the sign, and then on my desktop came a screenshot of «Mahabharata», where Krishna said: «You can go after him». I looked at these words and I think: «Why should I follow him, if he did such abominations with me and I still feel my impotence that I can not do anything with him». But Krishna said that.

I think Krishna knows better. Someone came to me, recognized me, protect me, said that I its grains. So if the girl is not his, then he can do anything?! The rest, means, not women, not people, and the pieces meat? But Krishna said I could go after him. I do not see what the situation is in reality. I think: why did Krishna say that?

And then I wanted to revise the lecture of my Gurudev, in which he offered me for Shri Ram. I wanted to pump with her more screenshots. I listened to her, took 160 screenshots from a 20-minute lecture. And when I got to the end of that lecture, there were words, «Ram took a vow in our interest».

And I thought: I'm sitting here and I don't see how they really have the situation, I have a strong desire to this Shri Ram to be not, but this screenshot with the words «you can go for it» came out because somewhere this Shri Ram took some vow in our interests. And Krishna said to me “You can follow him”. I didn't follow him right away because I had to accept it. Well, then I did, so to speak, went after him.

So I went after Shri Ram. This step was given to me very difficult. But Krishna said that I could follow him, and some parent of mine from my past lives came to me and took me under his protection, and I was shown in my Gurudev's lecture that Shri Ram took some vow in our interests. I thought, Yes, it's good that he took some kind of vow, but how strong is his word? He had already given the word as a gentleman, and then safely pretended that nothing had happened. How can I trust his word? But I can trust Krishna's word. I decided to surrender to Krishna. I said to Krishna, «Krishna, I'm going to go get that Shri Ram because I think you're for it. But if this Shri Ram, Krishna, does something wrong, then please take him away from me completely. I don't want to be in a place where I get hurt, where I'm not respected or appreciated”.

I thought that I had come to give Shri Ram a chance and that I should give him a chance, and what he would do with that chance is his choice and his decision. And either way, I'll go my own way. And when I went after him, I had such a great impulse, such a rush, that if Shri Ram would deceive me, let what I went after him destroy him completely, that there would be nothing left of him. I thought it was wrong for a woman to wish her man that, but I couldn't help it, it was against my will, my resentment was so strong. I think that's how the female energy works. If a man protects a woman, her energy protects him, and if he harms her, her energy destroys him. And it happens by itself.

But Shri Ram told me that everything would be fine, that he would do anything for me. How did I know about this? This time from the words of my Gurudev. When I transcribed the video of my novel in the text, I came to a description of how I started my Mahabharata among the Asuras: with the blessings of my Gurudeva, with the word as a gentleman Shri Ram and my letter for Borka, a former leader of the Moscow asuric organization that his life was finishes.

In that lecture there were words that I took as the answer of my Gurudev: «Srila Prabhupada, I am happy serving you. I have no shadow of doubt, fear or illusion about my position as your servant. I'd do anything for you. If you had ordered me to go to hell to preach, I would have jumped on the first train rushing to hell, and on the way I would have happily sung the Holy names». It was January 18, 2017. And on February 14, Valentine's Day, Shri Ram gave me his word, about what I learned from the book «Falcon and Swallow» Boris Akunin, which then read. Then Shri Ram, sitting somewhere in his home, far away from me, said in the words of this book: “I will not do you any harm. You have my word as a gentleman. On the contrary, I am so grateful to you for your coming from nowhere to brighten up my loneliness. Trust me! Here is my hand. I will not abuse your trust. We are alone in this gloomy world, so let's stick together.”

These quotes from my Gurudev's lecture and from the book “Falcon and Swallow” I copied from the previously recorded part of the text of my novel. I typed in the search in the word I needed word`s phrase, copied the quote found on it and inserted it in the right place I write me the text of the novel. And it so happened that first I copied and pasted the words of my Gurudev, and then the word as a gentleman. But for some reason when I inserted the word as a gentleman into the text, word glitched, and instead of the word a piece from the previous copy, that is, the word of my Gurudev was inserted. And it turned out that:

Then Shri Ram, sitting somewhere in his home, far away from me, said in the words of this book: «Srila Prabhupada, I am happy serving you. I have no shadow of doubt, fear or illusion about my position as your servant. I'd do anything for you. If you had ordered me to go to hell to preach, I would have jumped on the first train rushing to hell, and on the way I would have happily sung the Holy names».

I sat looking at the glitch in word's text and thought that was what Shri Ram was telling me right now. He sitting now somewhere there, far away from me, says he is happy to be with me, happy to serve me. That he has no shadow of doubt, fear and illusion about his position as m-y husband, and of his duty. That he would do anything for me. That he would definitely take the chance I'm giving him. That if he needs to go with me to our future lives with him, where my debt will direct me, he will be happy to go there with me. I understand that so. I looked at those words and they calmed me so well.

At the same time I took another book in the library — «Cosmo Hill» by Jon Colfer. And when Shri Ram told me in the words of my Gurudev that he would come to me, I opened the first page of this book before going to bed, and there was this epigraph: «Thank you for the last four years and in advance — for many years in the future». I looked at those words and thought, Shri Ram and I have been together for four years? Really? I has become count when our interaction began. From that sign of the Universe when I was flooded by the neighbors above. It was November 1, 2013. And now the summer of 2018. Yes, it all fits: we have been interacting with him for more than four years. Four years exactly.

I once again marveled how the Lord's energies are inconceivable and amazing: our communication with Shri Ram takes place and thus. Literally through everything. I looked back at this epigraph: «Thank you for the last four years and in advance — for many years in the future» — and thought: it's great, just not in the format of non-contact. After all, the last four years we have been interacting with him at a distance. But it does not suit me. But Shri Ram said that he thanked me for many years in the future. So we have many years in the future? That's interesting.

I thought about what it could be years. I thought, of course, in real life. Of course, with him personally, not on some stupid deceptive scheme of theirs using other. Of course, honest, to respect my wishes and his. I remembered his promise that I would at least be rich and that he would do anything to make me happy. I wondered how he would do it, how we would live, where. I wanted the usual female happiness. Just like that woman who was with Shri Ram in the summer of 2016, who thought that every woman was born for happiness and she deserves it.

How quickly paradigms change when conditions change. I thought, the most important thing for me is not to forget, remember and always keep in my mind's eye the memories of what I have knowed over the past four years, when Shri Ram and I were through distance, but so closely interacted. I thought, how will we meet him? I was afraid to think about it, because I thought it was just unreal. But in the 227^th series in the screenshot of the Mahabharata, Shri Ram said that I don't need to think about it, that he will do everything himself. I thought it was right, and he reassured me that for me he is ready for everything and he has no shadow of doubt, fear and illusion.

I thought, okay, Shri Ram somehow everything will make, but I don't want, when we shall be reunited with him, played the quiet game, pretending that we were usual, randomly met people. I had an interesting idea, how to get our relationship with in the real world to the platform where we the eternal couple. I created a website that outlined the whole novel, and made a business card, which placed the background screenshot of the series «Mahabharata», where Draupadi with a sword in his hands destroys flying snakes. This is when the Pandavas came to the forest snake Takshaka to build next to the forest, his city of Indraprastha. Then Takshaka sent his snakes to them and the slaughter began. And there she was waving a sword, killing those snakes that attack people. I took this screenshot, made it the background of that special business card and said to place there the text with the name of my novel “My Roman. I’m asur’s wife” and referring to the site with my novel.

I thought that with this business card, I would find a way to transfer our relationship with him in real life, albeit in a facetious form, to that platform. I've seen it happen before. As he ask me, and that this for woman with sword and that this for novel, and I I'd say him: «Ah imagine, that we with you eternal couple and many lives were together, and then you turned asur, somehow not thus, as we, people, and with me was the and the». And I would tell him, my Shri Ram, about me and him. I like this idea so much! I thought that this idea is more sympathetic to me than the version of our meeting, which I invented and set out in the 181^st series of my novel. There we met and got together, but was pretended knowing nothing, that we had accidentally encountered as ordinary people.

But here, in this version opened such wide horizons! We could take this game into our lives and be ourselves, pretending it was just a game. But that's interesting. And then he could even clear up some incomprehensible to me places in my novel, as if expounding their assumptions about them. I would ask him: «Look, I do not understand this in my novel. Imagine that you are this Shri Ram. As if it was all in fact, with that vision? Well, think about it, turn on your full imagination, allow to manifest the most incredible versions, how could it really be? I'm interested in your vision». And he would have answered me as it really is, but imagining it as if he had invented it, presenting himself as this Shri Ram. And I could even call him Shri Ram as a joke.

It would be our game with him. Which is actually our real life with him. Like in a song:

It would be our secret with him that we could talk openly, presenting it as our game with him, because I wrote this novel of mine. I thought I is a genius. Because here I am a normal person, I myself could not come up with such, and therefore, it I came up before my birth in this my body, even when I was between lives and made this plan.

I thought, how did I come up with such a brilliant plan and such great ideas? Shri Ram is so lucky that his Shakti is me. I thought it would be good to record my invented move in the video, but I don't have any idea how we're gonna meet him yet? I decided that if it somehow comes to me, then maybe I will write at least another series. About our meeting with him, about our acceptance of this game, this secret of ours with him, that we are an eternal couple, about our life with him. I thought: the Lord's hand is in all things. Krishna, as You say, it will be.

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