Gratitude for faithfulness over many lifetimes

The thought that Shri Ram put me up for sale for asuras was very frustrating for me. I thought, how did this happen? For what the asuras have this service for the sale of sexual services at the energical connectivity? But I understood that the asuras have such a service. They have such stock exchanges. They put women up for sale. Women at that time live a normal life and do not even know about anything, but periodically have sex with someone, or masturbation.

Asuras are able to plugging into women (and into men too), at the energy plane of existence. They may to plug asuras into her, absolutely imperceptibly for her, imperceptibly to have her in sex or in her masturbation. And although for her this is masturbation, for asuras it's like normal sex, because they can enter into any items, into anything energetically and they can feel everything like really. And when she has an orgasm and her sexual energy is released, asuras can pump pious merits out of her.

The asuras has such a business in offering of such sexual services, because many men do not want to get married, to endure tears of the wife, her tantrums, whims, and her bad mood and fulfill her desires. Now men are very spoiled and lazy, and they do not want to go to the trouble of this family life, so the asuras say, «I will rather go to our market at our mental chat, look at the mental catalog, read the characteristics of women, will look at the mental videos. I will get information about these women when they are dressed, undressed, what they are like during sex, what energy they have. I will choose suitable woman, pay universal currency, that is, the pious merits, and when she next time will masturbate or having sex with some man, I will plug into her and will get a dose of pleasure. I, being at my home, will fuck her, not touching her, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy plane of existence. I will get my portion of pleasure, and no problem. No family squabbles, no female vagaries, no responsibility». And Shri Ram put me on that market, on their thought asuric catalog. But I didn't know that.

When I found out about it, I was very sad. This Shri Ram was pretending that he was with me, and I was with him, but he was plugging other asuras into me through himself, at the energy plane of existence. Such was his gratitude to me for fact that I had saved him from the life`s collapse, which came to him for the fact that he treated me very badly and decided to squeeze me out of his space, although six months before that he said to me «be my wife, become my wife».

But half a year has not passed since this event, as he began to squeeze me out of his space and already gave me to asuras from his asuric organization, because he had a much better woman than me. He met a flashy, gorgeous, sophisticated woman in real life, looked at her and thought, «Compared to this a stubborn and stuck-up coat rack to whom I said, „be my wife, become my wife“, this woman is just a treasure». And he threw me out and fell on this treasure.

But though that woman was a treasure, she was a stranger woman to him, and she didn't care what happened to him. Because her credo was «Every woman is born to be happy, and I am Worth It». It is, of course, was a good woman, a jewel, but she was spending her pious merits only on herself, and she to a large extent didn't care at all how others live. Look, you will help him; you will pinch from yourself a piece of pious merits and give to him. His affairs will improve, but something goes wrong with you, you will have health problems or business trouble, but you want to live well, you want to enjoy. In short, something will go wrong with you. If you will pinch from yourself this piece of pious merits and give to him, your affairs will develop not according to a good script of the further vital way, but according to the worst.

And when Shri Ram switched to that woman and started getting rid of me, he got reactions. He almost lost all his business, all his money, his house; he would become a fatal loser. After that, a sad ending awaited him. Bankruptcy, vagrancy, that woman’s refusal from him. Why would she be with a real loser if she wanted to enjoy? If you want to enjoy, you have to enjoy, not to help some strange men who for some unknown reason have become losers.

Shri Ram very much wanted to improve his position and agreed to my ultimatum. I told him at level of my higher self that I would help him, but I made a condition: either I or they. I told him I would help him, but please respect me, I don't like the presence of other women, and I don't want them to be. He said, «All right, I'll do as you say», and he decided to put me up for sale, so that asuras fucked me, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy plane of existence, in order to they drank from me all my feminine energy and all my pious merits, in order to I fall down to the very bottom of life, become a trash and fall off from him. He was going after that return to his pleasures.

I remembered about Borka, the former leader of the Moscow asuric organization, how he came to me on the commuter train, how he asked me to be his wife. He was choosing next wife.

The asuras have this practice. The asur marries not for the purpose of having a wife, a woman he loves and cares about. He does not need a woman he loves, but a source of pious merit. Wife he needs as a source of pious merits, as an oil well to which he connect other asuras in their marital sex and pump everything out of her. He takes, of course, a faithful woman, very pious, with a large reserve of piety, to pump out more pious merits. He appointed in advance that she, of course, will be faithful to him, but he will plug many asuras into her in order to quickly take all pious merits out of her. It`s like how several oil pumping stations are connected into to the oil well, that is providing stable oil mining, and from it all pumped out. When an oil well becomes empty, the owners abandon it. And after that a factories drops hazardous waste down a dry oil well. Asuras do the same. Asur marries a pious woman with a large supply of piety. He tries to be a good husband so that she loves him and trusts him. During their conjugal sex, this asur connects other asuras to his wife, and they together pump her pious merits from her. When after a few years of their happy marriage, her supply of piety runs low, he puts pressure on her consciousness, manipulates her consciousness so that she cheats on him and goes to another man. And after that, her life turns into hell, because she, being devastated, without the piety merits, is lowering to the very bottom of life and is used as a garbage bin to dump toxic life waste into her. When she becomes empty, without her pious merits, this asur, who was her husband, presses her consciousness and throws her into some other man. Outwardly, everything happens as if she was cheating on her husband, leaves him and ran off with someone. Everyone thinks that she was acting of her own free will. But this is not so. In fact, she is just a victim, because she is by nature faithful and this behavior is not characteristic of her. She would never abandon her husband, because asuras to pump out pious merits take faithful women who not cheat on husband. But he forced her, pressed onto her mind, and outwardly it looks like she left him. And asur, who was her husband, thus is freeing from that woman he devastated. He remains crystal-clear and looking for next woman for the role of such a sacrifice, a lamb to the slaughter, such a wife, an oil well.

I have in the winter of 2017 dealt with a large party of asuras, who loved to use wives as oil wells. That time I sent them all to the hellish worlds, and before that I brutally was torturing them and pulled out their sinful tongue, that is, some energy tongue at the level of male genitals, with which during the female orgasm the asuras do withdrawal of the pious merits from piety account of woman into piety account of the asuras. I thought that Shri Ram deserved it. He himself told me «be my wife, become my wife», and suddenly began to give me to others, so they quickly pumped everything out of me.

I remembered a man from my past lives who came to me when Shri Ram sent me to tender when he had Lona, the eraser of asuras. That man came to save me from Shri Ram, who spared neither me nor my children, deciding to devastate me and simply destroy me. I refused this man, even though he came to save me and protect me, and Shri Ram just wanted to use me. That man wouldn't do all this to me, he was good man, and Shri Ram was doing such abominations to me, but I stayed with him to give him a chance.

What did he reward me for my many lifetimes of devotion? I didn't abandon him between lives, when he was made an asur and when I was looking for him between lives and when there was no response from him. That time some powerful personalities came to me. They showed me what he had become, and said that we could not be together, although we are an eternal couple. They offered me to break our eternal bond with him, they had such power. They said to me, «You will no longer depend on him, your craving for him will disappear, and your pious merits will not go away from you to him, thanks to which he there, being asur, do all sorts of abominations. Let's break this eternal bond of yours. Yes, he will be without you, without his Shakti, but it is his choice».

They offered me another eternal couple, because my svarupa, that is eternal position, is to being a wife and other positions are unnatural to me. They gave me another couple, but I refused. I said that I would not betray my beloved and would not accept another instead. And for my faithfulness to him, he gave me such a reward. He decided to put me on a sale, to empty me completely, in order to I fell to the bottom of life, and then into the lower forms of life.

What reward did he give me for my trust? He began to sell me to everyone, in order to erase me quickly, in order to my children were without me, alone, defenseless. Yes, he did not spare me. This can be somehow understood. But why didn’t he spare my children? What have they done to him? They have never harmed him. Why did he think he had the right to dispose of other people's lives? What reward did he give to me and my children? Through them preemptive signs were being sent to him, whom can he subordinate, who is good, who is bad. Through my children were being sent advance-warning signs for him, but he did not consider it necessary to somehow spare, pity them. No, he said, «I'll erase her. What will happen to these children? Who cares? Who are they? There are many such children everywhere. Orphanages are full of these children. What happens to these children in orphanages, I do not care. The main thing for me is to enjoy life».

What have I missed in my devotion to him as my eternal husband? I guess I was wrong; I misapply my freedom of choice when between lives I was offered to abandon him, break our eternal bond to my pious merits had not flowed to him and contributed to his degradation. They offered me to break this connection, but I refused. I made a mistake. As a result, he began to follow the principle «we remember only the best».

Now she is the best, and we are with her. After her will be the else best woman, then third best, and every time we will go to the best. But that woman is no longer the best; need to put her on the forgetting process, of completely erasing, so that there she is nothing left. I told those powerful personalities between lives that I didn't agree to break the connection with him, that I would be faithful to him no matter if I couldn't be with him. I said that I would help him, send him my pious merits periodically, so that no one would lord it over him, so that he could respect himself, so that he could live normally.

What came out of it? I began to feel myself as a complete nonentity, which is so insignificant nonentity that this insignificance can be treated only like that. I was experiencing bitter feelings and regrets that I did not agree then to the proposal of those powerful personalities and did not refuse him. Because of this happened that when I came to him, he put me up for sale and began to devastate me to wipe out of existence, not sparing my children. When I was in such a depressing mood, a screenshot appeared on the desktop of my computer with the words «At the end of the battle, I will sacrifice a pumpkin to them».

I thought, yeah, we will kill someone of the asuras for what I'm experiencing such emotions. Such a reward he gave me when I saved him from a ruin of life. He had to become a homeless person, and then lose his asuric abilities. I would have been shown what he did to me, and I would have burned everything he had. He would have been nothing, but I saved him, and what was his gratitude to me? When I saved him, he decided to put me up for sale.

I thought: whom of the asuras will I sacrifice? What am I going to do to them? I had no absolutely no idea, but I thought I should punish some of them, and the Lord said to me in the screenshot of the «Mahabharata», «Trust me, sakhi». Krishna said to me, «You don't know who to kill? Don't worry, I'll tell you. Just trust Me. We will do everything real classy, and It'll happen without a hitch».

I decided to trust Krishna. I thought, «Yes, Krishna, You know everything». Someone should be held responsible for the fact that he was plugging everyone into me and was ruining my faithful and devotion to him. I was put into their asuric mental catalogue among many other women. There were pictures of me looking at myself in the mirror and when he was looking at me through eyes of other people, and in the gynecologist's chair, and at the doctor's office. Asuras were examining me there and reading my characteristics, when they were deciding to buy me or not, to fuck me or not, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy plane of existence. And someone even fucked me there. They will pay for it.

Three secrets were revealed to me by Shri Ram when I was thinking that at the man on the card could not see right hand and, therefore, he must open what he hid there. First secret is about he brought me back to ranks of his contactless whores. The second secret is about he did it as a thank me for what I helped him. Third secret is about Borka said to Shri Ram something bad about me, because of that Shri Ram wanted to get rid of me, did not want anything to do with me, but he was forced to return me, and then he put me on sale. That's what he told me.

Then the Oracle «Hot Delphine Dumpling» told me that this was all Shri Ram had to reveal to me. At screenshots from «Mahabharata» was said that now no one will disturb him and he can relax. I thought that that was the end of the story, but there were still undisclosed pages of our interaction with him. There was something else that Shri Ram would not have revealed to me even if I had tortured him. But what he revealed to me really outraged me. Thinking how this could happen, I could not resist and attacked Shri Ram.

Because of thoughts and the bitter suffering due to the fact that I, like a horse, was put up for sale, I became so furious that I looked at my internal screen, and a big Trident appeared in my hand, on the energy plane of existence. I pierced Shri Ram with this trident and began to brutally stab him with the Trident, making him hurt. I wanted to hurt him more, in order to he scream at the energy plane of existence. I wanted all asuras to hear him whine because of this unbearable pain.

After that I drew out something of his mouth into me, lots. And then I saw as if zipper on him. As if there is zipper on him from the bottom up. And I unzipped this zipper completely, and from him a big stream began to rush into me. I was very gloating at that time and thought: «You will pay for everything what you did to me!» I really wanted to brutally have done away with him. I think, I could've brutally finished with him, but Krishna constantly kept before my mind's eye a picture of TV series «the Mahabharata», as if to say me, «Baby, hold on a second. Listen, no, hold on, hold on... Sweetie, it's all right, calm down. Just just slow down, all right?» And this picture somehow slowed me down.

If it wasn't for that picture, I would definitely kill him. I was very angry with him, and my anger didn't go away. And then the next morning I got a mailing of Dhirashanta Prabhu's. At the end of that mailing were these words: «Understand that those people, who are around you, may well be the people with whom you will live your whole life, and perhaps they will be next to you at the time of your death». I thought that Krishna was saying to me through these words, «Yes, of course, you are very angry with Shri Ram, but what if he is the one who will be with you for the rest of your life and will be with you at the time of your death?»

I thought: well, if that's true, then I have to forgive him, even for that. What if he helps me? But what if he says “Hare Krishna” at the time of my death, when I will leave the body? But what if he takes away the ashes of this body after death and lowers it into the river Yamuna in India so that I received the real benefits? But what if he takes care of me somehow? What if he takes care of my body and of me, who is a soul who is in the material world and who wants to return into the spiritual world? I thought I should forgive him. If he can help me, I have to forgive him. And then came the screenshot where Krishna vouched for Shri Ram, and I somehow tried to calm my anger, my rage at him and forgive him.

After that, I bought a silver charm for my silver charm bracelet in the form of a bouquet. Because on that Metaphorical associative card, the bouquet in the man's hands represents a return into the spiritual world. I thought: the material world is a terrible place where your eternal couple, who is your eternal husband, can make great efforts in order to force you to be with other men and even put you up for sale to them, to completely erase you. This material world is a horrible place, because here your real husband, eternal husband, your real soulmate can do everything so that blast your world into nothingness, so nothing is left of you, and for this he will not spare not only you, but also he will not spare your little children. This material world's a stinking shit-hole, so I bought this a silver charm for my silver charm bracelet in the form of a bouquet. This bouquet is the spiritual world. We must return into the spiritual world and take advantage of the auspicious that Srila Prabhupada gave us.

After Krishna vouched for Shri Ram and said through the words of Dhirashanta Prabhu's mailing that those people who are around you may well be the people with whom you will live your whole life, and perhaps they will also be next to you at the time of your death, I thought that I should somehow forgive Shri Ram, I should be kinder to him, show mercy and some respect to him, and I tried to forgive him.

Life returned to normal. I participated in one game with Metaphorical associative cards. In this game I got a card on which a man held out a bouquet of flowers to a woman in the mirror, and then Shri Ram was forced to open me three shameful secrets. And then came the next stage of this game. I again said some number, and I got the card with the cute little girl in the white beret who is leafing through her diary.

I began to describe everything that I saw in this picture, and then began to look at the already written by me, in order to that I came to realize what this picture actually says about me and my current situation. When I looked at this picture, I wrote the following: «Here is a girl, sweet, emotional, and sincere, a simple soul, thoughtful, with a slight sadness and love looking at her diary. She looks at the large heart painted on the page of the diary in which the word “Love” is written. Love. She sends me the most important message: there is love in this world. It looks like the diary is all filled, it's the middle of the diary. And it's not like she's writing a new line right now. She's just looking at what's important to her. In front of her are two candies on the table. Apparently she loves them and she has them in abundance. She don`t grab candies and she does not eat candies. Apparently, she used to eat candy and knows that when she will want to eat candies then new candies will be. Next is a vase with flowers. Flowers all different, and big, and small. Beautiful bouquet. Flowers behind her, too. We could think that this is wallpaper on the wall, but it seems that there is no wall. It's just a world of flowers. Nearby stands a wooden cupboard. And on cupboard there is also a large bouquet. She is all in flowers. This is a miracle! On one shelf, on top, is a cake in a box. On the shelf below are muffins in paper baskets. Lots of muffins. She's got a whole cupboard full of sweets. And next to the cake is a box. This is either a box of chocolates or a big chic chocolate. That's why she doesn't throw herself to candies. She has a cupboard full of sweets. And they are on hand always. On the table is a notepad, it stands like a wigwam. Notepad seems to be standing between the candies and cupboard with sweets. And notepad seems to be telling to candies, «Not for you! You're wasting your time here». This shows that many men are waiting for me, but I love those two my candies that lie in front of me on my table. And I don't want to be distracted by the candy cupboard. I tell them, «Here are my two candies that I love. You, of course, are the delightful treat, and patiently waiting for me to look at you, but no, I love my two candies and I will be with them, and you'll get nothing».

I had seen a lot of meanings in this picture. I had seen that, it turns out, there are some men, very good, who are waiting for me and each of them can become my husband, if I turn around and look at one of them. But I don't turn around. I'm sitting with my back to them. I look at this heart with the word «love» and at my diary, and there are two candies in front of me that I love, which I have in abundance, and I do not jump at them and do not eat greedily, because I know that they are always with me.

I thought these two sweets are my two husbands, whom I happen to love. And this is Shri Ram, who is my eternal husband, to whom I have come now, and this is Nrisimhadev, because I once in distant lives became the wife of the deity of Nrisimhadeva when I danced the dances of devotion to the Deities on the higher heavenly planets. These are my two husbands, my two favorite candies. And the sweets in the cupboard are the men who want to be my husband. They're all good, they're all delicious, and I also love all these sweets, and they're waiting for me, but I don't turn to them, I sit with my back to them. And I through this notebook in the form of a wigwam as if I say to these men: «Not for you! You will not wait, I love my two candies». In Russian, the word «вигвам» («wigwam») is very similar to the expression «фиг вам» («Not for you!»). When you say these words, there is almost no difference, with the exception of one sound, so in Russian «вигвам» («wigwam») can be considered joking way of the expression of phrase «фиг вам» («Not for you!»). And when deciphering the meaning of this metaphorical associative card a notepad in the form of a wigwam means «Not for you!». That's nothing more than wordplay. And it turns out that this notepad in the form of a wigwam as if passes my message to these sweets in the closet, that is, to men who want to become my husband: «I am not for you! I have two of my husband. This is Nrisimhadev and my Shri Ram. I love them».

When I realized that I was waiting for a lot of good wonderful men and each of them is ready to become my husband, but I just do not turn around to them and do not even look at them, I cheered up. And in my mind I said to Shri Ram, «Look, there are many men who want to be with me. You risk a lot because of you don’t come to me. You’re a fool, Shri Ram. Look, even though I love you, but I'm a woman, I want to well live here. I'm good, awesome, pretty and smart woman. All women say, „Every woman is born to be happy, and I am Worth It“. It's every woman's mantra. Sorry, but I'm a woman too. And I'm a truly real woman. I was a woman in the spiritual world, and here, in the material world, I can be born only a woman. Because those souls who are women in the spiritual world, being in the material world, can be born only women. And since I am a woman, and for a woman the pursuit of happiness is her natural nature, then I also want happiness. Why are you still not with me? Look, I will turn to this closet and get one of goodies, and you're gonna be left with nothing. You are fool. You mishandled me. You even put me up for sale. You treated me as if I'm some kind of slut. You're wrong! Look over there; they are men who are much prettier than you, better than you. You're not the only one who lives by credos „we remember only the best“. Look, if I start to live by your principle „we remember only the best“, I'll go to the best. There are many sweets waiting for me who are much prettier than you. These are expensive gourmet chocolate, a nice big box of delicious chocolate truffles, wonderful sweet homemade pretty cupcakes, fresh and flavorful magical sweetest muffins, and even delicate gourmet beautiful cakes. You're just some little candy, but there's the best delicious wedding cake waiting for me. And there are a lot of goodies».

And just when I told Shri Ram that there were a lot of sweets waiting for me and I could go there, and he would be left with nothing, I was translating from Russian to English a piece from the conversation of husband Daruka with his wife from the TV series «Mahakali», on the basis of which I described the attitude of Splinter, mentor, Sensei of asuras, to his wife. I was throwing already translated places from one online translator to another, choosing synonyms and more or less suitable options of meanings. And when I was doing this with the words of the husband Daruka to his wife, when translating from English into Russian, an online translator suddenly issued this: «Look, I will divorce you, and your teeth will be knocked out». Originally there were not these words and this meaning, but as a result of throwing this piece of text back and forth in online translators and selecting different meanings, this meaning has turned out.

I looked at these words and thought that I was saying this to Shri Ram. I kind of told him through the words of this translation, «Look, they’re waiting for me there. The amazing, gorgeous men. Very nice, pretty men, much better than you. You’re just candy, but these men are gorgeous exquisite sweets, and they're all waiting for me. Look, I'll divorce you and your teeth will be knocked out. If I leave you, then your own asuras will destroy you, because I have destroyed many asuras because of you, and they are very angry with you and dream of revenge. They will rip you to shreds, nothing will remain of you. You'll get all your teeth knocked out».

And then I translated the following words of husband Daruka to his wife, and there was such a translation: «You are pure while I am with you». I had looked at these words and thought, «This is Shri Ram saying to me, „You are pure while I am with you“«. I had saw that as if he were telling me that even if I go to those good men who are as those sweets in cupboard, and it will be all right, I still will not be pure. I knew that the asuras could penetrate into marital relations, into marital sex, but this time I had really acknowledged this.

I thought: even if I am faithful to the husband with whom I will be, and we will have a legal marriage and faithfulness to each other, still asuras will be able to penetrate into our marital sex and I will not be pure? I knew that asuras are able to penetrate into marital sex and they do it, but this time I saw it very clearly when I saw these words of Shri Ram «you are pure, while I'm with you» which he said me in response to my words «look, I will divorce you, and your teeth will be knocked out».

That is, he told me, «If you be with some man and get married him, you will definitely have sex sometime, and we, asuras, will certainly invade insensibly into your marital relations, in your marital sex, through distance, without contact of physical bodies, at the energy plane of existence. You won't even know about it, and your husband too will know nothing, but you will not pure, you will be defiled, because it is not real purity, because someone of the asuras will be present in your marital sex, at the energy plane of existence. You think if you become the wife of someone there and you have faithfulness to each other, you'll be pure? Absolutely not. You’ll be pure, only if I will be with you. I am an asur, I am able to see the energy plane of existence and I am able to protect from penetration of someone. Only in this case you will be pure».

I looked at this and I thought we needed each other. He needs me so that his teeth are not knocked out by his fellow-asuras, and I need him, so that I am pure, so that no one else invades marital sex, if it does. Yes, we need each other.

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